hi twoapenny,
Maybe I am different, maybe not, but I learned more about me throughout this stressful adventure called Life.
After the accident, 4½ years ago, when the end of the month would come, my mood would change, and I gathered after a while that it was because the Insurance Co. was coming to cut more of my funding. Whatever happened, I went back to being the abnormal me.
When a Dr. said I ought to do pool therapy, I said I couldn't. It took 3 months to prove it on land. Until they dropped that idea, I was as tense as could be, as though I were lying, and my therapist noticed these changes,
Tense as the court date drew closer: thought I was calm but developed aches and pains: blamed it on accident.
I tell myself that I am a stressed, anxiety-ridden person and don't even know it, as the results are usually physical.
When I need my arms massaged, She will say relax and I think I have relaxed and she works them over, but then drops my arm. it stays in the air. \it should fall to the bed! That is like my trying to control and not follow orders????? or just always tense.
When I lost the use of my arms, I thought my shoulder rotator cuffs were shot and it was an old folks home for me. but nope a separate condition (PMR) from the accident.
I'm learning to relax about having a "helper" who does most of my work, while I sit at the computer, or lying down reading. I have my therapist, too, and so am well cared for.
I am annoyed that the steroids put weight on my face, waist and feet, but today I finished 5 weeks of treatment but am less annoyed to know that it will drop off soon. anyway, I am old(er) and if I look like Alfred E. Neuman (Mad Magazine) then so be it! (Nevertheless I bought a small package of Ferraro Rocher to celebrate---then will lose it all at once!
I doubt anyone could come to just visit and find me as interesting as I used to be, but in the long run, I think it will return if I don't stress out over every little thing. My life is as it is, 2 'employees', my Will in place and, as I have been doing for a few years, downsizing odds and ends that I no longer use---to the laundry room for another, if useful, or straight to the garbage. I cut my File Folders by half realizing not all paper, documents require saving, and what good are my report card now?
Check (keep an eye on, an open mind re) your stress levels, as stress is very often the cause of physical pain and discomfort!
False accusation would be a stressful thing to deal with----like doctors and lawyers implying I was lying.
Onward Ho!
XX
Izzy
