CB:
LVP or LVF...same thing. Planks or flooring or LVT.....no grout. It's waterproof. Good for us and any renters, should we get to that point.
I'm nervous about different sibling ideas for what this place should be.
I missed my T appointment, bc my brother phoned....the conversation was supposed to be about LVP in 3 areas of the house. Contractor waiting on it.....I thought we might have it today or tomorrow.
Instead brother begins talking about spraying all the warm amazing Pecky Cyprus walls white....diirs, trim, but not the ceilings, which are all vaulted orangish wood. Special, bc it has natural oils....doesnt need sealing. Dad picked it special.
He's also talking about turning house into a hotel again.....Im not opposed. I simply don't share his vision and it's not what Dad planned.
Then brother says we might should tear out the existingvoak hardwoods and brick pavers, which I've scrubbed and steamed and removed 25 years of waxed in filth. I can't wrap my head around making this lodgy home into a fancy hotel. I love all the wood by fire and warm lamp light.
While he's talking, I forget I have a much awaited T appointment and he had many more things to say, which didn't include final LVP selection.
My contractor will be here in the morning. I know he likely will say NO to the big hotel job, should it come to pass.
I was ready to add 2 toilets, 2 showers/tubs, a little kitchen then call it done.....airbnb, put it on the market, see what shakes out.
I think I'd also like to consider putting tiny houses along the shoreline as rentals, with their own fire pit, outdoor kitchens....access to docks and boats, etc......
I'm conflicted.....and a bit worried. I sometimes want to run away, sell everything and start new dreams....not work on my father's and late husband's dreams, which is what I've been doing to preserve the value and spend time with my family.
My kids are grown. They won't need me like this much longer, likely.
I want peace with my siblings.....to work on common goals was what Dad wanted for us.
It's just stuff. Not as important as getting along, but I'm the people pleaser.....I want to think this through.
II was nervous about contractor having to wait for flooring so he can finish bath and get paid.
Now I'm worried about the direction this project is taking......about his willingness to stay AND I have an aversion to spending big retail dollars on fancy renovations. My brother is adverse to buying old things and repurposing them.
I hope we can be compassionate with each other through this. I hope we can get through this.
One other thing.....brother wants to move quickly, bc there are no zoning laws now. We'd be grandfathered in should things change.....I guess? There are questions about sprinkler systems at x number of units, etc....great unknowns, brother is a big picture guy, like our mother.
I'm nervous about oldest dd20 adulting. About both dd's eating disorders and health and finding my way after they leave the nest.
Preserving relationship with siblings while honoring myself. I've been a parent for 20 years and firefighter of fires other people start.
What will I be next? Besides so bored with food I want to slap myself in the face if I'm not busy all the time....gogogogogo, which isn't conducive to being really present for dd18.
Thanks for the coconut water idea. She can have that and continues to feel better. It helps to read your DD feels better afyer J&J distress. I made dd18 a g/d/s free comfort waffle, with warm lemon apple cinnamon compote. She's smiling and feeling good enough to sit outside in the sun and wind with me again. I think it's going to rain.
There isn't enough mommy love in the world, CB. I find it difficult to balance, I admit it.
Lighter
