Anything

[Meh]

Well I went to the store and got myself a anticipation care package in case I get sick. Includes fresh garlic which I just made soup out of. Campbell's easy canned chicken soup, a couple of power bars and hydration drinks. Just in case.

[Hopalong]

Now make each of them a mug of that soup and you're being compassionate!

[moonlight60]

This poem so touches my heart ...

“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.”
― Pablo Neruda

Love and Light

Moonlight

[Hopalong]

Fish oil capsule. Or oil from a can of sardines.
Smear in palm.
Accept her next withering handshake with a smile.

Zoom off to the ladies' and wash up.

Keep a straight face when you return to the gathering.

xo
Hops

[Hopalong]

Oh, tosh.

I am VERY confident that with endless leisure and bonbons, I WOULD
write the Great American novel...

Or more seriously, I do not think anxiety (re. food, shelter, basics) does much for people or civilizations.
I do think every human benefits from some deeply challenging periods when they do struggle (to a degree) because you can't gain mastery or deep skill without struggle (or some would simply call it "practice" -- but for this brain, that often means struggle.) Others are just in an amazing flow and routine for many years, that make it work. Probably got food/shelter/healthcare covered, though. Starving artist/writer is fun, even cool, in your 20s. Then not.

It's just when it's all the damn time, that I think people wear out...

xo
Hops

[Meh]

Just feeling loneliness is all.

For a long time I didn't recognize my loneliness or even liked to self-isolate.

Now I am feeling it quite clearly in the evenings, the way I go to work and come home to something that isn't a full life really. I don't know, time with myself just feels wrong now and it leads me on to thinking about if it has something to do with age.

Hum I will look it up.

Not that any one of these things quite voices what I am feeling...

Oh hell I was going to put links but I will just say it.

The handful of people that I interact with at work I don't know really if they are "real" friends....

I have written more about my brother HERE than I have said to friends or family

I just wish that as I went through all the stuff I go through it wasn't alone.

[Meh]

http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Am-Lonely/3070834

This doesn't help at all:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/whitney-caudill/being-single-how-to-handle-loneliness_b_3461062.html

http://www.wikihow.com/Deal-With-Loneliness

I think number 4 I need to work on "being a pleasant presence"  .....   I snapped at my co-worker today and I feel bad... it's just that I feel like every customer I talk to I have to fix their problems for them.. it's a lot of problems to fix. This isn't just doing routine job stuff.. it's like they want us to make everybody happy... and it's really hard... but I need to try to be a pleasant presence... I went and apologized to the person and then she told me a joke.. I think she was the pleasant presence not me... I feel bad I just do about a lot of things and I am tired of feeling bad all the time.

But any whos. I am going to do something shrug not sure what yet but shall do something... maybe I will bring that person a cupcake because she really is nice.. it's just that I feel like I am following up on too many things and our company kind of pimps out the customer service recover to us without having any meetings about overall company process. if something goes wrong it is our fault.

I want to run away but throwing on a backpack and jetting just isn't as plausible as it once was.

Anyways this is wallowing.

[Hopalong]

I can relate, a lot, to both the loneliness and the job.

What a good person you are that you apologized,
and how sweet of her to respond with a joke.

Cupcake, yes! But not a guilty one, a celebratory
one. You two had a nice moment of sharing.

Job oh ugh. I so get it.

Garden garden garden garden garden....

Hops

[Meh]

Anybody ever think that females have a different version of conscious than males do...

Like female right and wrong is different than male right and wrong..

maybe it has to do with the difference in brains idk

[Meh]

Was starting a youtube video, had an advert and it narrated "There is nothing like knowing somebody out there is totally rooting for you"  I hope I spelled that rooting correctly

Reminds me of how people who grew up voiceless often had that MISSING... the family cheer section right...

Another thing that voiceless people need to remember, we say self-care and so forth but also rooting for ourselves right!    

[Hopalong]

RIGHT!

 

Hops

[Meh]

 

[Meh]

Lazy Lazy day for me. Slept past 12 PM

Not doing a whole lot really.

Feel tired maybe from allergy meds don't know.  I should have gone out this morning by myself alone.. and go to do something just to get out.

Tomorrow is suppose to be bad weather.

[Meh]

https://shine.yahoo.com/healthy-living/weight-loss-blogger-claims-that-shape-magazine-tried-to-censor-her--after--photo-184601401.html

Hay look something real...

[Meh]

http://www.moneynews.com/MKTNews/Stock-market-recession-alert/2014/02/03/id/550641/?promo_code=16610-1&utm_source=taboola&utm_medium=referral


Says the stock market is going to crash again this year...

I am having a cup of coffee surfing the web  looking at taylor swift's hair cut etc.