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[Hopalong]

I love the idea of you sketching and painting, Boat.
And raking in the yard until you ache.

THOSE things bring you life and you deserve them.

I don't know what your plan should be but I'm confident
you'll get one going. You know, it takes a long time to heal
from the horrifying chapter you went through. I am certain
you will find more momentum and the art and the connecting
to the outdoors are signals from a healing psyche.

Be compassionate and encouraging to yourself. What may
open yet for you will still open, even if you don't force it.

The present isn't your future and perhaps in art, there is
going to be your path.

Chin up
Hops

[Meh]

@ Hops, I think I'm relatively okay really, some rotten teeth still I think from not keeping up with Dental care.  A lot of it has to do with space, time, permission and valuation. Allotting value to art in a similar way to when I was younger, I think I did art really as expression. Now maybe I feel like I have given up or that I don't want to start again. Its also daunting to feel like I have lost time, gone spans without doing it. A cheesy quote: Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time." Thomas A. Edison

Watching a movie called Enchanted April, its sort of older.

[Meh]

would have found it dull and boring in the past but at the moment now I love this sort of thing




*** rasmussen***

[Hopalong]

Oh it's gorgeous.
Alive.

Hops

[Meh]

Bonnard

[Meh]

"If it is the conceptualist’s wish to always be clever, then it is the Stuckist’s duty to always be wrong."  LOL   Stuckism

[Meh]

After many years of not painting and now just checking out again what is available, I am learning that there are now brands of oil paints that are somewhat "less toxic" which means I may not have to use and store turpentine meaning slightly easier to do in a shared living situation If I do decide to do it.

[Meh]

And looking at more art. All I am doing been a completely lazy uneventful weekend.

looking at
Ilya Repin

[Meh]

  Brendekilde

[Meh]

I associate art with loneliness. Like a desire and an acceptance of loneliness. I also associate it with hope and belief in the future. or that somehow it is worth doing because there is something to look forward to in life.

[Hopalong]

Low-VOC turps! That is awesome!

I understand exactly how you feel about art.
Same for me with poetry.

Oh, man, Boat. You just stepped back into the river o' life.

SO happy to hear it!

Hops

[Meh]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Victoria_Woodhull

[Meh]

Nothing much today to report. Worked. I think I might stop having wine/beer for a while, I usually only have it with dinner but I think my body needs a break from it even in the relatively small amounts I have i think enough is enough for a while.

[Meh]

Watching the Republican debates right now.  I don't own a TV so I am watching on my lap top.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9WwzXkJd8aY

[Meh]

You ever feel like its not okay to have chronic conditions? Like when I think about it. I have to consider voicelessness as almost a form of chronic condition.

When I first started coming here I did really have a huge revelation about my relationship with my mother/family etc. But now that I am sort of post-Narcissism- revelation I probably just write on the board because I am lonely and I am not sure that it has anything to do with my mother's Narcissism or my Narcissism if I am or whatever.

Was reading articles few days back about customer complaints versus customer venting. Learned that when a customer is complaining they are seeking a solution that they are willing to participate in. When a customer is venting they are not really seeking a solution and may not even be willing to participate in the solution ... or something like that and then I started reading about Narcissistic customers LOL.... but whatever.

Okay I am going to sleep now.