Dear Everyone,
As I go through the healing process, so many things come up that I would like to tell my ex. As I have no intention of contacting him though, do you mind if I share them with you instead?
TO MY EX:
1. You probably think that I'm an absolute sucker,for accepting your treatment of me, being there to listen to your problems even after you found somebody else, and supporting you materially. I would like you to know that actually I'm a very intelligent and well-respected person, and that altho you didn't see any evidence of it, I do have a mind of my own.
2. I have never had a chance to tell you that now I know you are a liar. I wish I had questioned what you told me about your past, and what you told me about your present. For some reason I never once asked you for any details.
3. I wish I had not confided my deepest secrets to you. I told you personal things about people in my life who were very special to me;and I shared things that nobody else knows about me. I would like to tell you now that you were not a person worthy of receiving these confidences. The reason I told you was that I believed you were my soulmate, and that I believed we would be there for each other, as friends or as lovers, for the rest of our lives.
4. I want to tell you that you enjoyed the best of me, without feeling any obligation to me in return. I know that you repeated the facts and ideas which you got from talking to me, and used them in conversation with other people, to impress them.
(And I noticed that when you very thoughtfully sent me photos recently of your new baby, you called her by the pet name which I used to call you!)
5. I want to tell you that I wish you would or could consider how it makes me feel when you occasionally leave messages for me on my phone. Consider how it makes me feel to get a message saying how you miss making love to me,a message which I didn't know at the time was sent when your girlfriend was pregnant with your (planned) baby.
6. I would like to shake you into some kind of reaction, by telling you that I have blocked your email,and will not pick up the phone if you ever call me again. I would like to MAKE you think why I am doing this, to MAKE you question your actions.
7. I want to tell you that altho I still miss the person I assumed you were, and altho you are always in the back of my mind, AND altho when I am in the city I am always subconsciously looking out for you ...I want to tell you that if I ever saw you coming along the street, I would walk fast in the other direction, or hide until you had gone past.I want you to think about why I would do that.
Dear friends on this board, thanks for listening. If anyone else has similar thoughts, and thinks it might help to post them,please do.
Sincerely,
Lara.