he is just a crappy horrible and disgusting man terrible and gross. He stole the keys from my purse to my house. Last night he put them back in. I was in denial about it and stuff. I told my moms' boyfriend and he said that that is not a big deal or something. I don't know what to think!!! or do. I really wanted him to change the locks but at the same time, he would not take me seriously. I met him at the meeting yesterday and was so nervous that I couldn't get anything out of it--- he gets mad when I don't lavish attention onto him, but is always getting annoyed at me so I am afraid of annotying him or something---- he told me that when he was ignoring my calls and hung up on me he was like "fuck you" insifde and said that that had nothing to do with me but at the same time I pick up that energy off of him and feel afraid, i one time had another boyfriend that was nice and i was not afraid to pay attention to him. . He tells me to call him any time and then he gets annoyed when I call. I think he likes to see me suffer. I do not understand . I just feel really bad and wierd and scared and like I am in a daze or something. Thank you for warning me about this you guys. I was annoyed at the having to learn a lesson from this because i didn't want to learn this lesson and have to leave him, I am sorry I got all annoyed at the learnign a lesson thing. Anyway I think my lesson that I am going to try to learn is that even though he was an asshole to me I am still sad and will miss him and just because he is an asshole doesn't give him the right to hurt me, and that I am allowed to be sad and angry at him and stuff, and feel hurt, and not have to pretend that I am not and still learn some sort of lesson without pretending that I am removed forever from my own pain and actually wasn't even there!!!
