hi H&H -
I'm sorry cause when I posted that to you I was very frightened and trembling that I'd made you upset, somehow....and trying to find some words that might soothe you. So, I think you misinterpreted what I wrote.
I wasn't trying to make you mad. I was asking if you were OK (but not in a condescending way, in a - ick, I feel bad if reading my exchange with reallyme made you feel bad, if it triggered you). That's the way it was intended to sound cause that's what I meant. I was hoping you were OK, and if you needed to talk about feelings, I was inviting you to.
I guess that doesn't come across in text too well, though does it?
Curious why you added the comment that you agree with jac too. *Sigh* this isn't going to be another now we're taking sides, who's better jac or bean, I hope? Cause I don't think either jac or I are "right." There's no right or wrong about who's interpreting my actions correcly, see?
I've spoken from my heart, without sarcasm, and with a whole lot of fear, and I'm sorry if people cannot see or hear that. That is either 1) a limitation of the internet and/or 2) a limitation of their ability to give another (me) the benefit of the doubt in this case.
that I can be interpreted in Sooo many ways clearly says there's no objectivity, right? So the only way to truly know what I meant and thus what my words were Intended to do, is to ask, right? And I know, they were only intended to a) soothe myself and b) try to soothe reallyme.
That's why I don't feel bad, H&H. So, if you feel bad, I'm sorry, cause I don't and I think maybe that's why you might have felt bad cause wanting to scream enough - that feeling - typically happens for a reason and that's cause you don't want to witness pain. And I think that witnessing pain might have something to do with your past. Is this making sense?
pb