Oh, and the person who complained about me getting the assignment without officially applying--he spent two Saturdays extracting information from me (I had mistakenly thought he was interested and being a "colleague"). He just looks right through me now. I even spoke to him today. But it was as if I were a ghost. Such a calculating and cold person.
It seems like a nest of Ns.
Oh Penny,
How awful, with the shock of knowing such a cold hearted betrayal of your innocent trust.
Enough to want to take a vow of silence.
If it is any comfort, I have been had like this, in workplace and in personal life situations.
Feeling safe is my goal for my future, safe from these kind of people, who are not worthy of our attention or affection, and yes, they more than likely do have personality disorders.
The struggle for a good job is one that I am bearing up with at present, knowing that I will never get back what was taken from me.
Penny, been thinking, and we need to remain focused:
on what we have learned from our own unique painful experiences in our life, on the reasons why they behaved toward us as they did, having accepted that they are not going to change, because they have no desire to.
on the realisation that we have changed, and have chosen to grow into a person who is now aware, and becoming equipped, to spot the Red Flags of behaviour and respond in a protective safe way for us.
that we are learning the power of choosing our thoughts (love that Hops and have adopted it).
that we are learning to choose the power of our discerning actions ......... because we aware of the truth now.
Penny, we have so much now that we have come this far, and now we are able to look forward with real hope in our hearts.
Blessings to you,
Leah
Edit: ps. thinking back to some of my workplace situations 'nest of N's' is a harsh reality