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axa

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Dogville
« on: February 12, 2007, 02:12:32 AM »
I dont know if any of you have seen the film Dogville.  It is very very good.  I saw it Christmas 2005 and it felt like a mirror of my experience of what I had endured with XN and his D.  The ending was different to my ending I must add.

I would recommend it but it is harrowing.

I discussed it with XN and also the concept of retrubution.  He was big into retrubtion, mine was that it brought one to the same level as the abuser, sometimess a good lump of retrapution seems delicious.............. feeling mean.

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Re: Dogville
« Reply #1 on: February 12, 2007, 10:26:50 AM »
Hi Axa,
When I was in the rage stage after being badly hurt by xNbfs, I would have revenge fantasies.
My favorite was a tall handsome forester who used me, encouraged all my attachment and vulnerability, then unceremoniously announced that he was ready to sleep with other women now. Arrggh. I knew he had this pattern of seducing and tossing, and he went to a city swimming pool near my house every day. He was also very very proud of his huge truck. He also was very concerned with image making...presented kind of a smarmy goody-two-shoes in pubic and even his Quaker meeting (where he'd also run through a few other women).

I had persistent fantasies of having bumper stickers printed that said, in big red letters:
WARNING: THIS MAN HURTS WOMEN

...and plastering his truck with them some Saturday a.m. while he was swimming his laps.

I think in both cases, when I felt vengeful, it was because I wanted to humiliate the Ns in public, and unmask them.

By the last xNbf, though, I just didn't give a hoot. Wanted to get away from him as fast as possible. So that was progress.
And that's been over two years, and I've learned a lot since. If I get out there again, I think it's going to be a lot less WORK.

Hops
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Re: Dogville
« Reply #2 on: February 12, 2007, 10:50:42 AM »
Hey, I've been having strong revenge urges but being a guy I'm not sure if they are different to women's ones?
Now that ive found out about N's and realise ive been a victim all these years my anger is a little overpowering sometimes
and i dont like it. I feel betrayed, humiliated, de-maned almost I dont like it one bloody bit. I dont want to see my so called friend
as im afraid what id do even thinking about him makes my blood boil. I hope this is just the initial stage cos sometimes I feel at total peace
and then the next im thinking its clobbering time, is this normal?

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Re: Dogville
« Reply #3 on: February 12, 2007, 11:18:17 AM »
Sure is, James. It'll pass.
Keep your fist in your pocket.

If you ever do see him just turn your back and walk calmly away.
(One doesn't hang around toxic waste dumps.)

Hopalong
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Re: Dogville
« Reply #4 on: February 12, 2007, 11:43:01 AM »
Thanks for the support much appreciated, let the calmness begin...

Peace
James

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Re: Dogville
« Reply #5 on: February 12, 2007, 11:48:27 AM »

(One doesn't hang around toxic waste dumps.)


Brilliant Hops

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