Hey Mof4 and Ami,
CONTROLLING the universe wow what a question is right.As far as controlling outcomes for self and others I did this for years .....
As for myself I now do not try and control outcomes for self as much and I am a lot more peaceful and I resolve the challenges that arise and go on.
This peacefulness and trust has come from what I have learned on this board.
Yes you do want to think positively and yes when this is difficult know you are doing the best you can and go on .
When you judge self and you feel you have made mistakes forgive self and also if wounded by others try and understand we are human as Sela said on another thread.
The challenges are great because like Write I deal with being bipolar..
Only now when on the top of the rollercoaster looking down at a 90 degree drop frozen in time do I have the realization
of what is going on and hold on and know this will pass.
Surly the most foolhardy thing for someone with bipolar is to control the outcomes when mood swings happen .(control as in will power)
My manifestation of my bipolar (lifelong) is I get scared and have panic and anxiety attacks they are a lot better now.
I have control more than ever before for the last 2 years I have been on medication and a lot of the negative behaviors are gone and my sleeping patterns
are better.My Doctor is happy as I am and Mr M and 2 daughters.Still the last 2 years have been difficult.
Mood swings happen to everyone bipolar folks have them a little more intense.
Mof4 the question is so great .The problem I have is the need to control the outcomes for my kids.
My oldest daughter was hurt 2 years ago and I am so grateful she
is alive but I am over protective and I know that is not good.But it has taken me this long too regain trust in the universe.
I am grateful to be a good support of my children and not such a worrier.
Thanks for listening
moonlight
