I wish everyone would run around the beach naked...... esp the round wonderfully full bodied peopel who look comfortable in their skin. I think it might draw a few stares in uber-repressed Texas, but maybe not. Maybe it would be one of those movie moments where everyone would join me, racing around naked, whooping for joy at their new-found freedom. Until the police arrived to round everyone off- they have little beach 4 X 4 s in Texas to facilitate making people tip away their Budweiser, even the most sedate middle-aged consumers, I kid you not
From all the people I have talked with, losding weight is a 'personal' thing, i.e one must find what will work the best.I think you're right Izzy, and there's certainly no shortage of stuff to try, though I will opt with common-sense healthy only!
And I don't exactly like Louise Hay either, though her books are works of art: she's a bit, well, 'daft' sometimes....
I enjoy wearing clothes. HOWEVER it in NO,NO,NO way heals the inside. It is as empty, empty, empty as ever. wow Ami, sorry you feel so empty.
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I don't feel empty ever now for long. You'll get there, I know you will.
Wonderful picture there... rivers of living water, the Holy Spirit, flowing from the innermost being of the one indwelt by Christ.I feel very much like I stepped into the lifeflow some time ago, and though everything has been stripped away from me and there were times I wondered what would be left if anything, I think this is my spiritual self and you are right.
I wonder who wrote John's gospel, well all the gospels really. Their religious experiences must have been profound.
And yet Jesus said they would mislead us, and they have and they do.
One of the nice things about not being at church by the way is not feeling forced into communal eating all the time; so often I have felt pressured to eat food there, when it was the last thing I needed from them!
I guess our bodies present our inner selves in some ways though, a woman at my last church told us she had been to a talk on stillbirth, because although she lost her last child decades ago, back then it wasn't seen as a loss and she never grieved. She always looked stooped and had a pronounced belly like she was pregnant. I sent her my poem when I miscarried when I was young, which was about the fact there was nowhere to put your loss feelings, and she went back again and talked to the facilitator. Last time I saw her her sticking-out stomach was gone, and she said she hadn't lost weight, in answer to my query.
I tackle my body image issues by making all my own clothes, now. So much of what is in the shops is badly made, badly fitting, nothing made properly for people under 5 feet eleventy-ten (tall, anyway). So, if I make things that suit my body shape, in fabrics that I like, I know I look better, so I feel better.wow Janet. That's what I need. Nothing fits me quite right, not bras, pants, nothing.
I wonder if I could learn to make clothes?
And how to start?!
Lap BAnd in 19 days......wow Kelly, good luck. Are you nervous?
I hate myself.....I don't know what to do.
Love, Bethwell I think it takes time to change actually body shape, but you could start with some of my self-care regime, such as I always take care of my feet now, wheen I can't afford a pedicure I trim them myself but every day at bed I put on 'Flexitol Heel Balm' and socks and for the first year ever i love that my heels aren't cracked and bleeding. And I discovered just this week a new product by Johnson and Johnson who make the baby products 'Night Soothing Cream' with lavendar, I put it on all over at bed, it really does help you sleep but also my skin is lovely from all this attention! Other skin stuff I use is Clarins Extra-firming neck cream ( my only expensive product, it is about $90 a jar ) and Palmer's Cocoa Butter for stretch marks on my tummy. I walk and swim every day but I don't do much punitive exercise, in fact I try to relax and enjoy the whole experience. And I treat myself to fruit daily- sometimes just banana if it's the end of the month, but yesterday blueberries and strawberries, and often cut pineapple.
Right now I am enjoying reading novels again and watching movies and sometimes 'the comedy channel'. I've given myself a little book budget and buy from amazon. And I get aface mask or put some bath salts in a bowl and soak my feet. And though I'm back at the $5 haircutters ( she actually does a reasonable job if you keep an eye on her! ) and Clairol colour, i do take care of my hair.
When i found my budget running low last month with all the extra expenses I went through all my cupboards and my closets and pulled forward soem products I didn't know I had, purple nail polish was one, a lovely silk shirt which I can wear over a t-shirt but doesn't quite fasten was another, I got it in the sales for $5.
Actually i rarely pay much over $5 for my clothes, I have routes I go to my jobs and allow myself fifteen minutes in stores where they have quality clothes and good sales like Stein Mart and Ross Dress for Less.
All this probably sounds funny, but it's pretty new to me, I never cared or bothered much about any of this for years, now i realise it's all part of that great mystery called 'Loving Yourself'.
My Saturday Night Date nights with myself have helped keep it in focus and give me something to look forward to.
Oh and the first day of my period ( sorry Mud ) I allow myself whatever i want to eat- ice cream, potato chips, anything I like. One day a month of doign that won't hurt.
Love
~W
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to think she did that on purpose, because she felt threatened by my youth. What mother is THAT jealous?My mother was like this too, she must have hated having three daughters! G_d rest her soul.....
