Here’s something that I have a hard time with.
Her “Jesus” is one of her main sources of Nsupply.
She believes people are hurting, poor, or sick because a) they don’t have enough faith to claim their “blessing” (money, health, perfect life, whatever) and/or b) there is secret “sin” in their lives. She lives in a senior retirement home and stays away from people who are sick, scared or hurting. She boasts about this within a religious context, meaning she feels that this type of individual can somehow contaminate her and "destroy her faith" if she is around them. I do not understand the theological basis for her beliefs, never mind that Jesus Christ spent His time on earth in the dusty streets, helping the hurting, stinking, poor, heartbroken masses. She flaunts her health, wealth and other temporal blessings and boastfully takes credit for them, since she is on “Jesus’ ” A list.
People like me, the broken-hearted, maimed, financially struggling, goofball, nobodies are getting what they deserve; her “God” sees them as powerless and not worth blessing.
This makes my head and my heart hurt! My older sister is just like her. They don’t know what pain or struggles are…. 
Violet
Dear Violet,
Your posting had a huge impact upon my heart last night. In my quiet time, my inner thoughts, regarding my personal life experience and observance. Impacted with such a realization, of what has always bothered me, a great deal, and confusingly so, at times.
Her “Jesus” is one of her main sources of Nsupply. That's it!
And, in a nutshell, why I did not fit into that church (as per my story on Spiritual Abuse thread) -- likewise, multitudes of other people could not fit in either. No chance of being accepted because, we all of us, were not looking for Nsupply (had already ticked off many F Flags, last year) and would question their worldview etc., which was in contrast to the exegesis in the bible.
The church veered towards wanting only 'important' people, of obvious material status, and cast down, those who were struggling, in life, or with life. The N persons, had no time at all for the members who needed comfort, support, or solace. Many times, after my escape, I had been brow beaten for expressing the truth, that they were cruel and manipulative and contolling, in their thoughts delivered, and from their actions.
They did that also, The N persons -- flaunted their health, wealth and other temporal blessings and boastfully took the credit for them, since their were on the “Jesus’ ” A list. With loud proclamation of sowing seeds of money, with beget more money, a bigger house, a new car. All the money gave them the blessings, and left the giving people even poorer. Some went into debt, to sow their seeds, to get out of debt!!!
Fact is, their version of “Jesus”
was merely their main source of Nsupply.
Quite stunned last night, to realize, the harsh reality, the real truth.
Many many thanks.
Love, Leah
The one and only, Jesus Christ, went out of his way to spend His time on earth in the dusty streets, helping the hurting, stinking, poor, and the heartbroken masses. Hence, The Beatitudes!!
