Phoenix,
Thanks sooooooooo much for taking the time to look through the book for me. I truly appreciate it.
Just started a new job too? It’s helpful to hear from someone going through same thing. Sheesh… it didn’t take long at all for trouble to come calling, did it! Yes, I’ve witnessed the types. Their sheer immaturity is really what has them acting so asinine, and there is nothing in the world one can say to reason with them, as it is though they haven’t quite yet even developed the emotional ability to reason in a certain manner. Well, come to think of it, that is the descrip. of an N, too. Stuck at a lesser developmental stage emotionally. Luckily for some (where it is just age-related), it is something they grow out of!
That is just where indifference chimes in, I suspect. I love what you say about indifference being the canceling point. I will remember that phraseology.
I have my work cut out for me because both my thinking & physiology have become accustomed to feeling rage if feel that I am being very blatantly mistreated. I see that this is exactly what you are referring to, when you mention about our catering to these kinds of dynamics.
I know that is what fed xN in the former relationship. My emotional reactions of hurt, frustration, etc.
I’ve been thinking, and I’ve decided I will look at it like a little game, and also a little challenge I can give myself…. I will try to actually take pleasure in my indifference, knowing how smart I am being, and knowing that I am learning something really valuable that will serve me always…
It is like what you are saying, when you can see her faltering when coming up against her own powerlessness hehe… That would be scoring a goal, shooting a hoop, a 40 love… lol….
I was catering to the nonsense I had spent my life defending myself against; but more, I felt willing .Yessss…. Myself also with the catering, and more than willing, I felt
compelled…. Now, I will have the opportunity to use an alternate way… A challenge, but I'm trying reeeeeally hard here, to see it as an exciting one (argh)...
Thanks so much again Phoenix, and congratulations on working your indifference stuff so well!! It is truly inspiring to me (it will help me to think about what you've been able to do, if I get into such a situation), and I hope you are proud of yourself.
Thankfully, in your case this person is leaving, but if another comes along, you know you can handle it. Though, as you are giving out a dif. energy, they might only come along few & far between, and retreat pretty darn quickly…
Take care!
BT