Warm Welcome to you, Oops
I have just read your Life Story Account over on Members Stories Board
and you may just have written succinctly of my very own mother who likewise was a master at manipulation, and of my life experience, especially being DENIED and DISMISSED with words of "being too sensitive, thinking too much about things, and taking things too personal" certainly rings bells of recognition.
It never ceases to amaze me how they ALL do exactly the same!
I too would think ill of myself for having bad thoughts about my mother and that she was evil .......... so I really do understand.
Many members here on board will resonate and understand your life experience -- your Family of Origin, and freely offer to you their gentle wisdom and support.
Well Done You for being so Brave.
Take gentle care of you,
Leah x