Author Topic: Life takes a turn.......................  (Read 19056 times)

Ami

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 7820
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #60 on: July 23, 2009, 07:41:32 AM »
Dear Kelly
 Your praying during the CT scan reminds me of what I did after the police told me Scott died.I raised my hands and prayed.I was so happy to know God.        Love  Ami
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
   Carl Jung

Overcomer

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 2666
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #61 on: July 24, 2009, 09:37:16 AM »
I posted results on Ami's thread about me.....oh thanks everyone!!  I am sorry I am not helping with other people's struggles right now.....I guess I have enough of my own.  My mom and I held hands while waiting for the results!!  Our relationship has changed a lot..
Kelly

"The Best Way Out is Through........and try laughing at yourself"

Izzy_*now*

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 1688
  • Beer is living proof that God loves us
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #62 on: July 24, 2009, 11:56:49 PM »
oh wow ....NMom

How does that make you feel?
"The joy of love lasts such a short time, but the pain of love lasts one's whole life"

Leah

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 2894
  • Joyous Discerner
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #63 on: July 26, 2009, 10:42:08 AM »

I posted results on Ami's thread about me.....oh thanks everyone!!  I am sorry I am not helping with other people's struggles right now.....I guess I have enough of my own.  My mom and I held hands while waiting for the results!!  Our relationship has changed a lot..



Giving thanks, ........... so truly glad for you ((((( Kelly )))))
Jun 2006 voiceless seeking

April 2008 - "The Gaslight Effect" How to Spot & Survive by Dr. Robin Stern - freedom of understanding!

The Truth About Abuse VIDEO

intrinsic mothering

  • Newbie
  • *
  • Posts: 4
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #64 on: July 26, 2009, 05:25:05 PM »
Hi I hope you find this useful. I believe it works.
I like the quote 'incurable! = curable from within'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_b1GKGWJbE8&NR=1

YOU CAN DO ANYTHING..BELIEVE   :)

love and healing is coming your way.
HUGS

Overcomer

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 2666
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #65 on: August 01, 2009, 08:04:23 AM »
I thought I would give an update on this thread.

Yesterday was my first chemo treatment.  The blood draw and the IV are the worst for me.  In 1985 (when I was 25.....half a lifetime ago) I burnt my right arm and have skin grafts over the veins.  They cannot take blood out of the right arm.  So everytime I go in it is the left arm.  Apparently my vein is like a drug user.....scar tissue.  Some phlebotimists are good.  Some bruise me.  I forgot to take my high blood pressure yesterday so I got a little worked up.......dumb me....

So I guess this treatment is bad, but next week they combine this drug with another one.  That scares me a little.  Also I know that with each round my symptoms will get worse and worse.  Yesterday my only symptom was a bad headache.  Felt like a hangover kinda.....

I have gained 15 pounds since May.....It is bad.  I have been doing a lot of laying around.  I was thinking about doing some menu planning so I don't just lay around and get fatter.  Now that I can swim I should probably paddle around for about an hour a day.....

I got some cancer insurance (smart me for taking it out) and was able to wipe out all our debt.  Now I just have a couple medical bills which another cancer insurance will pay.  ( I was smart to take these insurances out.....I knew my family had a history of cancer!!!  So many of my family (women) got it in their 40s and since I am 49 I guess I qualify!!)

I have had so much love and support.  I am on facebook and I have had so many friends but new and old add me to their church's prayer list and if they didn't have a church they sent love and support and positive vibes.  I know that the prayers really helped!!

Someone asked me why I am having chemo when they removed the cancer and when I had my CT scan, it came back clean?  This is cancer insurance.......since the cancer is aggressive they need to try to kill ANY and all microscopic cells.  The doc says when they show up on the CT scan there are already thousands and millions of cells.  They want to kill them off when there are only one or two microscopic cells.  I am all for that...

So without chemo this cancer has a 30 to 50% recurrence rate.  With the chemo that knocks it down to a third.  So 10% to 16% chance it will recur.   I am praying that I can wear with confidence a "LEIOMYOSARCOME SURVIVOR" tshirt....

Love to all, Kelly
Kelly

"The Best Way Out is Through........and try laughing at yourself"

Hopalong

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 13621
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #66 on: August 01, 2009, 11:35:54 AM »
And you'll look good in that shirt, too, Kell.

Stay in the moment and try not to fear...don't think about the chemo as anything but your champion, your ally, your fellow fighter. Like--you're on a battlefield and somebody really homely and annoying who farts a lot and whom you never thought you'd want anything to do with otherwise appears, by your side, and slays everyone who wanted to harm you.

You've weathered worse in your life ... you're doing GREAT.

Admiringly,

Hops
"That'll do, pig, that'll do."

Izzy_*now*

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 1688
  • Beer is living proof that God loves us
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #67 on: August 01, 2009, 12:45:38 PM »
Good Morning OC,

What wonderful news! What a success/survival story!

I was thinking you had already had a couple of chemo treatments and the next was your last. Yes, and we hear it said that the treatment can make one feel quite terrible---all worth it in the long run!

Will you put a definition of LEIOMYOSARCOME on your T? or a [lee-i-o-myo-sar-ko-me] for someone like I am with these medical terms? Even phonetically I have my doubts!

Great on the Insurance!

Keep up the positive attitude!
Love
Izzy
"The joy of love lasts such a short time, but the pain of love lasts one's whole life"

Ami

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 7820
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #68 on: August 01, 2009, 02:04:20 PM »
I was right again on my feeling(((( Kelly)))).  I have never been wrong .       Love   Ami
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
   Carl Jung

mudpuppy

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 1276
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #69 on: August 01, 2009, 04:25:07 PM »
Kelly,

Have they talked to you about a subcutaneous port to deliver the chemo?
My wife has the wimpiest veins and it is very hard to get an IV started in her, so they put in a port below her collar bone.
Made things much, much easier.
If you're only having a few rounds of chemo might not be worth it though.

mud

Overcomer

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 2666
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #70 on: August 02, 2009, 11:10:20 AM »
Apparently I have good veins......they talked of a port......I have on for my lapband........(that didn't work, by the way......)  Maybe after the chemo I will tighten it up and give it another go!!

Anyway, Izzy it is weird to have my mom less worried about my performance and more worried about my health.  She still went to a convention a couple weeks after my hysterectomy.....I would never leave my children like that but that is just mom......

Also, I did a typo......it is leiomyosarcoma.......A on the end.......

I don't like having to have chemo but I don't like the thought of dying more.......so here I go!!
Kelly

"The Best Way Out is Through........and try laughing at yourself"

Izzy_*now*

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 1688
  • Beer is living proof that God loves us
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #71 on: August 02, 2009, 03:03:58 PM »
......they talked of a port......I have on for my lapband

you know, when reading, our eyes take in more than we know and I saw

"......they talked of a port......I have on(e) for my laptop"

You are too young to die, OC. Now take me, I'm not. I expect the next hit to come in the next 40 years in the form of  a Mack Truck! That ought to do me in! I'll be 110. Wow!

I was out today and crossed, safely, as a car was just slowly tightening up his parking, but I sure jumped at his next forward attempt (toward me) at being right with the meter.

My mom , 40 years ago, waited 2 weeks to accompany my Dad to the hospital. After 13 years in the w'chair herself, I can understand, but I was on death's door for 6 days. I think it's the latter that got to me.

I just had one incident with my D. She caught her toe when she was 6-7 in the chain of my exercise bike. I was gouged and bled but I got her out of it, and there was no bother until she began wearing higher heeled shoes. She went to have her toe fixed and I went in the next day to see her. Healthy as a horse--no wiping her fevered brow!

FOOs are crazy, I swear it!
xx
Iz
"The joy of love lasts such a short time, but the pain of love lasts one's whole life"

JustKathy

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 631
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #72 on: August 02, 2009, 08:58:48 PM »
So happy things are going well for you, Kelly. Sending optimistic thoughts and wishes your way . . .

Kathy

Overcomer

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 2666
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #73 on: August 03, 2009, 10:25:48 AM »
Thank you so much Kathy!!!
Kelly

"The Best Way Out is Through........and try laughing at yourself"

Ami

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 7820
Re: Life takes a turn.......................
« Reply #74 on: August 03, 2009, 12:06:13 PM »
You have been such an inspiration, Kelly. You have so much inner strength, maybe you were not even aware of.      XXOO  Ami
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
   Carl Jung