I can't believe she did this

[BonesMS]

Hi all,

Just another update - got the police records through and they have stated, in writing, that they felt my allegations were malicious and that's why they haven't investigated them.  They've also recorded that they want social services doing unnanounced spot checks and are not happy that social services have refused (ss sent the paperwork back stating that the police officer's concerns are not concerns and that they won't open a file on it).  How they are claiming that the assaults I was talking about in therapy nine years ago (backed up by therapist's notes on that one) and a photograph are malicious has not been explained in the file.  Corrupt, corrupt, corrupt!

OMG!!!!

Those !@#$ with badges are a bunch of @#$%%^!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bones

[swimmer]

Twoapenny.... First of all, your mom is a criminal!!  In essence this is child abuse directed by your mother to your son.  She is trying to get at you, but harming her grandson!!!  She can't touch him physically, but is just as brutal.   

Second, you really have your head together Twoapenny... protecting your son from this, and articulating this situation so matter of factly to the board for support.  You're the best mom, this is clearly all for your son.  People with mental issues do not clearly state things the way you have here in the name of a dependant.

Go Twoapenny!! Keep the papertrail going, someones got to foigure out what a maniac your mom is! 

Swimmer   

[Twoapenny]

Hi Bear, thank you so much for your kind words, it really means a lot, and I love that quote from Ghandi!  Have put it up on the wall

Bones, my reaction was pretty much the same as yours.  I have therapy notes going back nine years that prove these aren't malicious allegations so I will be seeing a solicitor about the whole situation, I feel like I've been stitched up and I'm not putting up with it any more.  Thanks for your thoughts ((((((())))))

Hey Swimmer, thanks for that, the papertrail is growing!  There is more and more evidence against my mum and more and more in my favour; friends have been pointing stuff out to me that's odd about my mum which I hadn't noticed because I'm so used to her odd behaviour!  So the papertrail is getting bigger   Thanks for your kind words xx

[river]

I could ditto what everyone's said.   And, theres a few and alsos I'd like to share, (BTW UK here too, thought I recognised the type of story!)

Most people are ignorant of Nism and there is an astonishing capacity that N.s have to project thier influence into the hereafter.  Furthermore, there is a type of blindness to abuse by an N. and specailly when it is subtle?  This is a disttressing reality.   Reading this has confirmed all this for me, it was just becoming clear.  It really feels at times like theres a conspiracy of collusion and blindness. 
Did you actually physically vomit when you saw the picture?   It kind of makes me think, well thats a quite appropriate demonstration by your body, as in 'the self becomes inconsolable'.  .......... and I would add - and rightly so.    I believe the 'inconsolability is surely what leads us to keep ourselves free and know how to live better than what we were given, not succumbing to the destiny projected, isnt this    'the defiant power of the human spirit'.
But well done for your survival, persistence, and looking after your child with all the difficulties.  I was a single parent too. 

[BonesMS]

Hi Bear, thank you so much for your kind words, it really means a lot, and I love that quote from Ghandi!  Have put it up on the wall

Bones, my reaction was pretty much the same as yours.  I have therapy notes going back nine years that prove these aren't malicious allegations so I will be seeing a solicitor about the whole situation, I feel like I've been stitched up and I'm not putting up with it any more.  Thanks for your thoughts ((((((())))))

Hey Swimmer, thanks for that, the papertrail is growing!  There is more and more evidence against my mum and more and more in my favour; friends have been pointing stuff out to me that's odd about my mum which I hadn't noticed because I'm so used to her odd behaviour!  So the papertrail is getting bigger   Thanks for your kind words xx

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((TwoAPenny)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Bones

[Twoapenny]

Hi River,

Yes, I was physically sick when I looked at the picture, I'm sick anytime I try to 'deal' with the abuse in some way.  I can talk about it in very general terms okay and some of the more 'minor' things I can discuss with my T and that's alright, but any time I try talking about the other stuff I throw up and it's like physically being twelve again.  I get so scared I shake, I can hear his footsteps on the landing, it's really like re-living it.  But I am absolutely confident that I am on the right track to dealing with it and getting it all out of my system; I am not going to let them win.  They've controlled me for thirty six years and I'm not letting them do it any more.  I get this really strong urge to go to their house and do that really childish thing, you know when you stick your thumbs in your ears and wiggle your fingers going "nah nah nah nah nah"?  I don't do it, of course, but I really want to!  I had this dream the other night where the abuse was taking place.  Usually I wake up really scared and shaking but this time I was running away so fast he couldn't catch me.  As I ran I grew into this giant woman and then I turned on him and was roaring and shaking my fists like some sort of GodZilla creature - like I was too strong for him and the tables were turning?  I think this is a good sign, I'm getting stronger on the inside and believing in myself more.  Thanks you for your thoughts and kind words.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Hugs to you , Bonesie!  You are always so kind and thoughtful and full of empathy and I know you went through awful things yourself as a child.  Big love to you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[BonesMS]

Hi River,

Yes, I was physically sick when I looked at the picture, I'm sick anytime I try to 'deal' with the abuse in some way.  I can talk about it in very general terms okay and some of the more 'minor' things I can discuss with my T and that's alright, but any time I try talking about the other stuff I throw up and it's like physically being twelve again.  I get so scared I shake, I can hear his footsteps on the landing, it's really like re-living it.  But I am absolutely confident that I am on the right track to dealing with it and getting it all out of my system; I am not going to let them win.  They've controlled me for thirty six years and I'm not letting them do it any more.  I get this really strong urge to go to their house and do that really childish thing, you know when you stick your thumbs in your ears and wiggle your fingers going "nah nah nah nah nah"?  I don't do it, of course, but I really want to!  I had this dream the other night where the abuse was taking place.  Usually I wake up really scared and shaking but this time I was running away so fast he couldn't catch me.  As I ran I grew into this giant woman and then I turned on him and was roaring and shaking my fists like some sort of GodZilla creature - like I was too strong for him and the tables were turning?  I think this is a good sign, I'm getting stronger on the inside and believing in myself more.  Thanks you for your thoughts and kind words.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Hugs to you , Bonesie!  You are always so kind and thoughtful and full of empathy and I know you went through awful things yourself as a child.  Big love to you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((TwoAPenny))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Bones

[lighter]

((twoapenny))

Just checking in.

Glad to see you're feeling "all stitched up," and strong enough to seek legal remedies.

As Mudpuppy quoted for me, in times of doubt and fear:

"Never give in.  Never give in.  Never, never, never, never-- in nothing, great or small, large or petty-- never give in, except to convictions of honor and good sense.  Never yield to force.  Never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy."

From Winston Churchill's 10/29/41 speech

Stay strong ((twoapenny))

Mo2