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« Reply #15 on: October 27, 2004, 06:58:51 AM »
I wonder why CG is blamed for what goes on in the Ramble thread?  Hey - why is she blamed for what goes on here in the board as a whole!  

Fact : Portia started the Ramble thread, several people chimed in, and it ended mainly with CG chatting with Portia.  Then some other people got involved in kicking Ramble and the people in it.  

Supposition : They didn't like the intimacy in that thread, I guess.  Felt threatened by it or jealous of it.  

Fact : But because some bullies start bullying people in Ramble thread, the Board has treated Ramble as THE problem.  The bullied were the victims but now they are also the scapegoats.

Opinion :

Shame on the board for scapegoating the bullied.

Shame on the bullies for remaining anonymous.  

phoenix starts a thread because of some bustup with Portia then starts saying mean things about CG

And suddenly everyone turns on CG as the problem.

Come off it.

Scapegoating again.

Solace - butt out of the issue of CG - everytime you jump in you cause problems with and for CG.  Your situation and the way you communicate presses buttons here.  Stop trying to 'help' - for some reason your attemtps to 'help' are destructive.  Find the means to deal with your own issues instead.  Check out the Enneagram : transform number 2 (must help) into its healing opposite.  Work on it.  Stop helping.

I remember the story of CG - her childhood.  For those who have not read her early stories here on the board, then shame on you for what you do to her.  We have all suffered at the hands of our parents but none more so than CG. Hers is a horror story which could never be imagined.  Her story of survival is a bloody miracle.  Stand in awe and learn.

We are all human beings with good and bad in us, anger and pain.  If you say mean things, we hurt.  Why does this board want to cause so much pain for CG???

CG was named as Caring Guest here on the board as a result of her support and valient bravery and effort expended on behalf of others.  That's what CG stands for.

Don't complain about someone who validates others.  What nonsense.   Get real and stop projecting your own demons onto individuals here on the board.  You do not know the harm you cause.

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« Reply #16 on: October 27, 2004, 07:44:20 AM »
Thankyou for your comments Guest above:

Hi Guest:

I posted something nice to Meadow and the bullying began.
For some reason that fact is eliminated.

My helping is not helping.
I hear you.
Have you read my post to Meadow?

Ellie:

I'm so very sorry I jumped on you.  I have no excuse.  It felt to me like you were wanting to send CG and whoever to a dungeon for the crime of speaking in ramble.
I reacted badly to your idea and voiced my anger directly to you.
That was not fair and I am sorry.

My anger is toward the whole acceptance of bullying and abusing that I have seen here on this board.  That is not your fault and you were trying to help too.  I guess you're helping didn't help me but that is no reason to direct my response to you.  I misinterpreted or misperceived and I am truly sorry.

I do, however, maintain a similar opinion as the Guest above here posted.
Rather than shame on the board, I'd rather say:  Please stop bullying others and please stop accepting this bullying of others.  This is truly what will turn new people away.

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« Reply #17 on: October 27, 2004, 10:09:55 AM »
VVVCM Guess I get to jabber here? Is this thread still with you? No matter, I shall reply to you. Sorry folks here, this is a biggie, I just kept at it and it grew..

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Phoenix doesn't seem to have any real problem with Portia apart from CG. The conflict is mainly CG centred.

Portia doesn't have any real problem with Phoenix apart from CG. And ditto. Portia seems to be mainly in confict with Phoenix regarding CG.

Ummm. I’m not sure this is my reality right now. I don’t want to talk about Phoenix either, unless it’s to her, which makes answering this tricky. Er, I think I can say that while it looks like I’m in conflict with Phoenix, I don’t think I am, really. I think we’re struggling to understand each other. It can look like conflict, but it isn’t destructive. Well I don’t think so. Phoenix will see things differently coz that’s how we’re made isn’t it? We can never get inside someone else’s head. Sad but true.

But as for it being CG centred, I don’t think so. Often I think it’s me and I should leave! In my head, lots of people would like to see the back of me. And I stop posting, or post as Guest, or as another name. I do that because I think the Portia name carries too much history. And if I’m seen to support someone, others might not like it. So the person I’m supporting might be ‘caught’. I think I am seen as ‘bad’ or disruptive by some. I think people might think I ‘took sides’ with Somebody. I did take a side (eventually, after swearing and stamping my feet), the side of not excluding or persecuting anyone. Inclusion is not agreement is it? We don’t have to love and agree with everyone in order to tolerate each other?

Aside: a heard a radio prog the other day about Inuits in Greenland. Apparently they don’t have a word for ‘punishment’. Amazing! Because they don’t believe, it’s not part of their meaning, that a person can be ‘bad’. When someone does something ‘wrong’ they don’t think the person is bad and they don’t even think of punishment: instead they realise that something caused the person to behave or think as they did. And they try to find out what happened. They ask questions! Think I wanna live in Greenland. If it wasn’t so cold. Anyway, just wanted to share that.

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I wonder about the Newbies finding this forum at times like this. Newbies who are hurting and need a place to talk. I wonder if they might go away with a very wrong impression of what this forum is all about.

Yes, this worries me. How many never even post? But can you or I help that? And surely they have the option to come back later? So I guess it’s okay. But I admit, when I post what I think is a tough post, I do come back frequently to see if I need to talk, apologise, make amends. I take risks here I might not take in ‘real’ life. Oh I don’t know though. I do take more risks now I think about it. And the sky hasn’t fallen in yet. Yeah!

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And CG doesn't. CG by her own admission stays in the Ramble thread and contributes to just a few. And sometimes inappropriately. Personally, I think that CG's style doesn't fit the ethos of this board.

I love CG so I’m just a tad biased. And I’ve seen CG in guest mode be very supportive of others (I’m guessing it was CG at the time coz it wasn’t always obvious). I think I can be very confrontational, or I used to be, and over time I’ve seen CG’s style as kinder in some ways and so much wisdom given freely. Such generosity! But then other times she’s made me wince with swearing! And over the top expressions (one to HUG&C comes to mind where I really did wince, physically). (CG when you read this, it was the one about the cross and skirt. Wow. I know some awful things were being said about me at the time, but I couldn’t have written that so graphically. Ha ha maybe it’s just my image-brain picture-making.)

I VOTE CG STAYS.

So what did everyone else on this thread think? Did they answer you VVVCM?

Oh wow. Well Solace, you vented big time there! I’ve got a hunch there’s lots more where that came from and you know what? I think it’s good. It needs to come out. I don’t know if you can do it here, I really hope you don’t do it to people here, coz you know it’s not about them don’t you? Course you do. Who are you really angry about? Want some candidates from me? Come on S. Both your parents treated you like shit and it’s time you said so. You can forgive them once you’ve really thought about what they did to you, when you’ve wept and shouted and screamed and got it out. Maybe I’m wrong. But I like to see you lose control. It’s okay. What’s not okay is who’s in your way at the time. Okay? I’m here. You can rage at me. Tell me how to get you angry at me! Did I just do that?

It’s a pity it went in your direction Ellie. Mind you, you got some good anger out yourself too. Anger is okay! It’s okay to be angry. It’s necessary to be angry. When we’ve stuffed much of our anger about our childhoods, heck, it’s got to come out or it just might kill us. Heart attack stuff. I hope you’re okay Ellie. Big voice back there, love it.

Dee, Les, Blue Topaz: can I talk to you together please? I hope I’ve got this right. You seem to want to ‘not see’ the conflicts. Like you said Les, you can not read those threads. Difficult I think! But getting an idea of someone’s personality is important, if you’re going to give any credence to any advice they give? So you have to see what’s happening everywhere. I guess. And isn’t it like watching the news? I don’t want to see war, killing, starvation etc but it’s there, in full terrible colour. I can look away, turn it off. It doesn’t stop it happening. It’s the real world. And becoming more self-aware, I think, is also becoming more aware of how the world around us operates. We’re not separate from it, we’re part of it. How we react to it is what’s important.

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Solace..... did you forget to sign in as CG before you went off on a rant at Ellie?
Stop this crap about people being multiple personas here. It’s taunting and childish and helps nobody. If you can’t say something helpful, shut up until you can. IMHO. It’s just an opinion.

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sharing our experiences maybe wouldn't get noticed or wanted
Good point and it made me go ‘ouch’. You’re right, expending too much time and energy on conflicts with a few people can mean that others get ignored. But I’m only one person. And not everyone is caught up in Ramble/Romper whatever. Some members don’t post to these threads and don’t even read them! Bunny has said that she doesn’t read Ramble and I was relieved. It’s no big deal. Those involved in conflicts don’t (usually) lash out at those not involved. So – umm – noticed or wanted? The more I think about those words, the more questions I have. I didn’t come here to be noticed or wanted so I can’t really understand. I came here for answers – clarity, information, to help me understand things. Maybe I've misinterpreted those words of yours. Probably.

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Perhaps it could reduce some exhibitionism and need to be the center of attention activities also.
I doubt it. Wounded people come in all shapes sizes and needs. And somehow here some expect to get along better than in real life. I don’t know why. We’re all just people. Trying to sort out our stuff. Why this board should be some soothing, non-confrontational haven, I don’t know. I think there are other places for that. Places where you can’t be anonymous and therefore where you do watch what you say. Personally I prefer upfront honesty. But I know that’s just me and I don’t speak for anyone else at all. Just me. Not newcomers, not other members, I speak just for me.

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But because some bullies start bullying people in Ramble thread, the Board has treated Ramble as THE problem.
Interesting, hadn’t thought of that! But can I say, Ramble hasn’t been all good at all, and I have got nasty stuff in there. But then, nasty stuff came to Ramble to twist my head inside out and give me a good hiding. All actions have consequences. But yes, CG is definitely not the problem and hasn’t been The Problem. CG/Sunny is member like everyone else, only human.

Hiya again Solace:
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My anger is toward the whole acceptance of bullying and abusing that I have seen here on this board.
 I gotta disagree S! Bet you knew I would? I think your anger is about a whole lot more: rejection, alienation, abuse, yes being an intelligent child being utterly and completely controlled by the twerps who you lived with. I know it wasn’t their fault S, but heck, that doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt you. Your experience is what matters – not their intention. All that matters is what S the little girl had to experience and how you coped with your experiences which I wouldn’t wish on anyone. You had a very bad time of it S. Very bad. Do you know that?

Anyway VVVCM, it seems it’s not ‘all CG’s fault’ after all. Not many votes here! But I get the impression folk here don’t want to force anyone to leave. Which is great isn’t it? That people can live together on a message board? It is great.

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« Reply #18 on: October 27, 2004, 11:30:47 AM »
Hi Solace,
I am no longer offended. You said:
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Ellie:

I'm so very sorry I jumped on you. I have no excuse. It felt to me like you were wanting to send CG and whoever to a dungeon for the crime of speaking in ramble.
I reacted badly to your idea and voiced my anger directly to you.
That was not fair and I am sorry.


Appology accepted.

I appologize for my strong statements back. I was venting.

The best thing I learned since hearing about voicelessness is that since I was not allowed to speak up in the past, I could not be held accountable for someone else's words or actions. My Nmom and Ndad held me accountable for everything, but as long as I couldn't stand up and say what I thought, there were no consequenses outside of the family.

But now that I have found my voice, I am responsible for expressing my thoughts and opinions. I am learning to accept that I may say something someone does not agree with, and that they may say something I may not agree with. I am learning to deal with this. Sometimes I deal ok, sometimes not so ok.

Time to move on - ok?

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« Reply #19 on: October 27, 2004, 11:50:02 AM »
Thanks for accepting my appology Ellie:

"I appologize for my strong statements back. I was venting. "

No problem Ellie.  I don't blame you for your response.  I feel like you have heard me and I you.  That feels good.

Enjoy today.

S
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« Reply #20 on: October 27, 2004, 11:54:31 AM »
Hi P:

Responding to your words to me in your post.  

"I really hope you don’t do it to people here, coz you know it’s not about them don’t you?"

Yes and I did appoligize for that and I'm even giving myself credit for not directing my big burst to anyone else after that.  It was my error and I take full responsibility for it.  I'm usually pretty honest about taking my lumps.

"Both your parents treated you like shit and it’s time you said so."

Did that P.  Years ago.  Really feel at peace in that area as I did vent during and after I left that house of horrors.  Still call it a house of horrors though.  Won't deny that.  I'm trying not to be too wordy here but P, I'm not angry with my parents anymore.  Really did feel it all and do the necessary stuff to get to that peace.  They have both passed on now.

"You can rage at me. "

What a generous offer.  Thanks.  I don't have any reason to rage at you P.  I feel like I am being raged at by some inappropriately and that has upset me and my reactions are no more perfect than any one else's.   Still, I better try harder to be gentle with those who are hurting too, eh?

"Tell me how to get you angry at me! Did I just do that?"

No you didn't and I can see your desire to help P.  Thanks again.

"I hope you’re okay Ellie."

Me too Ellie.  Thanks again for accepting my appology.

"I think your anger is about a whole lot more: ....."

Well, I am angry to see this voting business.  I'm angry to see all these accusations about you and CG and I all being one person posting.  It's not true and it seems very  abusive.  Rejection?  That's not quite as bad as you may imagine.  I'm ok in many ways but I don't like the pro-jection.  I'm the goat for it.  That's how it feels to me.  Then, CG is the goat.  Then, you say: "Often I think it’s me and I should leave!".  Maybe you're feeling a little goatish too, at those times??  How can a board designed for voicing emotions tolerate the induction of such scape goating of it's own members with such ease??  Get's me riled up!!  And I should not post when I am angry, should I?  Might direct it at the wrong source and I sure do not want to do that.

I came here and started to post some bits of my situation and about what was bothering me.  I was in a very sad state.  The rage I feel is toward my sister's behaviour and the effects of her n'ism on me.  She is the person I allowed to control me, frequently, for many, many years and I ignored her abuse for a very long time.   I stuffed my rage about my sister and I sometimes keep stuffing it, and I have released some-- but she keeps on with her stuff and ofcourse, I cannot end that.  I know she grew up in that house of horrors too and she has not dealt with it.

" Your experience is what matters ".  Thanks P.  Not just mine but everyone here deserves the same oportunity to express, don't you think?  Without a cruel vote being taken against them, and without having their story finished with imaginary and incorrect information, which is then deemed fact, and without what they reveal being used against them.  What do you think?  I bet you agree.

S
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« Reply #21 on: October 27, 2004, 11:58:56 AM »
My vote is CG should stay.  I have received much support and encouragement from her in my healing process.  I have also received challenging advice from her which has been hard at times but necessary and has helped me move along in my process of healing.

Hugs to all,
Michelle
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« Reply #22 on: October 27, 2004, 12:04:31 PM »
Course I agree with you S!

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I know she grew up in that house of horrors too and she has not dealt with it.

Does that make you angry? It would me. For wasting her emotional strength on fighting that which is buried to keep it buried? Just pondering here. Thanks for not taking my words as an attack. Is she older or younger than you? and I'm not supposed to be here....! Just asking questions as ever...gotta post another and go! P

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« Reply #23 on: October 27, 2004, 12:07:02 PM »
...sorry Michelle missed you up above...yeah! CG stays! Sunny, get yourself back in here gal, you're being missed! :D P

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« Reply #24 on: October 27, 2004, 12:14:06 PM »
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Dee, Les, Blue Topaz: can I talk to you together please? I hope I’ve got this right. You seem to want to ‘not see’ the conflicts. Like you said Les, you can not read those threads. Difficult I think! But getting an idea of someone’s personality is important, if you’re going to give any credence to any advice they give? So you have to see what’s happening everywhere. I guess. And isn’t it like watching the news? I don’t want to see war, killing, starvation etc but it’s there, in full terrible colour. I can look away, turn it off. It doesn’t stop it happening. It’s the real world. And becoming more self-aware, I think, is also becoming more aware of how the world around us operates. We’re not separate from it, we’re part of it. How we react to it is what’s important.


Hi Portia,

Firstly, nothing here is said with a bad energy.   I am so not at an angry and argumentative phase right now in my life….     I am moving toward a more peaceful and healing energy…  

You’ve got it half right in my case :)      I don't have any prob. with conflict per se at all, but the thing is, it usually gets resolved.  This thing is never ending, and that is one huge difference.  

I also think it has gone beyond mere “conflict” into just some downright mean and hostile stuff, and this is imporant to recognize as well.

IMHO it is also interfering in a negative way, with the board in general.
How?  

1) People that could normally reply to other threads in a supportive manner are spending their time involved in these argumentative threads…

2) More innocent people are getting pulled in and hurt.   Look at what just happened with Ellie.

3) People who would like to share on other threads may not because they might feel like they will be singled out due to things they have said in these volatile threads.   It takes and amount of trust to be vulnerable, even on a message board.    

Some have left the group because of the conflict as well.

4) When there are 2, 3 (will it be 4?) threads all dealing with the same dispute, it might scare away new, emotionally tender people who have already come out of enough violence and arguing, and could really use the support.  

It isn’t going anywhere positive, and again, it isn’t getting resolved.  

I respect what you say about getting to know all aspects of people, though I think we have come to see this by now.    If we need to see someone is a cold blooded murderer, we don’t need to watch them kill 10 people. We got the point the first time around.  Or a philanthropist lol... (the example was a bit neg. & not directed in a personal way toward the threads).

Besides, those involved within those threads often tell those bothered, to simply not read them.  So in that case, we are back at square one in terms of the bigger picture of people.    

It’s just a lot easier to ignore them when they are not so pervasive/omipresent to the board, and taking away from other aspects of the board (those things as mentioned above).  

There are people telling the group they are feeling affected by the never ending, growing volatile threads.  Out of nothing by kindness and consideration, why not just move these topics over somewhere else?  I know this is not in your/other's control, but  theoretcially, for discussion sake.  They are not shut down, stifled, etc.,  They are just in an environment where they can do/say as they please and not worry about getting slack from adding too much negativity to the board.   Honestly, I can’t see why they wouldn’t be a happy group because of the move, too!  

Not with general and “normal” conflict that is always part of human communication at some point, but where conflict will be ongoing and involve a lot of people, messages, argumentative energy, etc.  It just makes sense to give it a separate venue of expression.

It is not a negative thing at all (maybe some involved are seeing it that way & that is part of the issue?)   It is only a matter of logistics and nothing personal  And like I said, I even see it as a  positive thing for those who will have their very own forum area for these ongoing discussions.  

That’s how I feel personally.

Best wishes!  I really do hope that you all come to some sort of resolution at some point, and that you begin to post in other threads as well, so some can get to know you better.   Personally, I only really know you/your character from the ramble & related threads!   I guess it has to do with when I joined.

Take care...

BT

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« Reply #25 on: October 27, 2004, 12:19:03 PM »
Hi P:

Just a quick note back since I better get moving too!

No, I don't feel angry that my sister has not dealt with her stuff about her childhood.  It makes me feel pity for her and a desire to help her do that.  Unfortunately, she, as far as I know, has not done so.  She's said "it didn't effect me" and then pointed out all of my imperfections.  I worry about her and her children.  She is younger than me.  I am worried that she may have been sexually assaulted as a child, by my father.  I try to really feel my anger toward her and then I just feel how unfair that is of me.   :cry:
Then tremendous guilt, then great saddness. :cry:

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« Reply #26 on: October 27, 2004, 12:23:47 PM »
I agree with you BT. You expressed my concerns as well.

Portia, we have dealt with "reality" plenty. Conflicts do arise and mature and reasonable people can deal. But I don't see a problem with what Ellie suggested. It seems reasonable and logical to me. We don't need more drama here.

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« Reply #27 on: October 27, 2004, 12:54:17 PM »
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I wonder why CG is blamed for what goes on in the Ramble thread? Hey - why is she blamed for what goes on here in the board as a whole!

Fact : Portia started the Ramble thread, several people chimed in, and it ended mainly with CG chatting with Portia. Then some other people got involved in kicking Ramble and the people in it.

Supposition : They didn't like the intimacy in that thread, I guess. Felt threatened by it or jealous of it.

Fact : But because some bullies start bullying people in Ramble thread, the Board has treated Ramble as THE problem. The bullied were the victims but now they are also the scapegoats.


Thanks for saying this Guest.  I wish I'd been able to find similar words last night instead of babbling randomly to the wind.

Another fact is that in the time I've been on this board, there have been many who have been singled out over time.  Maybe it's just a fluke, and I keep logging on at volitile times, but to me, it seems that there's always at least one thread or one discussion about whether or not a certain board member is evil.

Last night was yet another time, only this time, those I care about were being targeted.  I got discouraged last night and wrote a big post - but I have to say, I felt encouraged again when I started reading other threads to kind of shake off the bad vibes.  There's so much great stuff going on here.

But there are also a lot of feelings running high at times.  I love that  things seem quieter today, and it gives me a lot of faith in the idea that people can be mad at each other and it's not the end of the world.  But I really really hope that people here can stop pointing fingers - and maybe when new folks come in, those who've been here longer can help them stop pointing fingers.

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I remember the story of CG - her childhood. For those who have not read her early stories here on the board, then shame on you for what you do to her. We have all suffered at the hands of our parents but none more so than CG. Hers is a horror story which could never be imagined. Her story of survival is a bloody miracle. Stand in awe and learn.


I was there during much of the unfolding of the story of CG, and I agree completely with this.  Like Portia, I'm also biased because I love CG.  I can't begin to express the warmth, courage, and insight she's given me during some very difficult times for me.  It was very difficult for CG to even adopt that name, and now here she is, registering as a member!  :D It's great!  She found the courage to find a voice here, and there were people who were willing to listen and welcome her here.  Isn't that the point of this board?  Being able to find a voice for all the unspeakable things we've been through?  Do we really want to be the kind of board that squashes that?

If it's distracting to see a thread that morphs into a conversation of sometimes arguably irrelevant topics, then perhaps it might be useful to have another forum here for stuff like that.  My own experience is that threads have been started and some comfort has been established between members of the discussion.  Kind of like a mini chat room.  It was always an organic process, though - and one I think is part of a few members's healing processes.

So maybe it would make sense to have a different forum of little chat rooms or cafe tables or whatever.  I can't really see the harm in doing that, and I definitely see the benefit of people here being able to build relationships - without having to do so offline, which is a whole new level and challenge.

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« Reply #28 on: October 27, 2004, 01:11:57 PM »
Like the seasons, everything has it's turn. The trick is knowing when to stay in a situation and when you'd be better off leaving a situation. I have left situations when I should have stayed and stayed when I should have left.

I think there are people here who actually should leave. I think their time is done. I don't know if CG is one of these people and can't really say that about anyone.

But I think it's something to think about. If you're here mainly as a rambler and not contributing to other threads, then maybe you should take the discussions to another place? I put a question mark there because I'm not trying to mandate anything but to really have yourself ask the question of whether you should be here. Are you helping or hurting?

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« Reply #29 on: October 27, 2004, 05:24:05 PM »
That last post from Dharma pushed a few buttons for me and I'm trying very hard not to 'strike'.

This board isn't for people to make YOU feel better - to help YOU or harm YOU.  It's not everyone else's role to look after you or the other members of the board.

You see yourself at the centre of the world - narcissisticly, in a child-like way.

The board is for individual members to help themselves, receive support from some, be challenged by others - or just to 'be'.

It's OK to BE.  

Preferably 'be' authentically, honestly, rationally.

Preferable to make a contribution and a positive one at that.

But it's not a job

And most especially it's not a job of caring for others.

You wanted that from your parents, now you want that from the board.

This board exhausts people who give.

I've seen it happen time and again.

Each individual can decide to leave when they've taken their fill of what's on offer - not to be defined in terms of whether they are 'helping' or 'harming'.

I hope this helps you find a more realistic way of viewing the board and viewing your life and the role of other people in it.

But for the moment I'm really pissed off at the assumptions in that post.