Anything

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Sigh I am smelling orange oil spray, it smells good.

I am going to make a cup of tea BRB

made it, dumped some honey and some white sugar in it because it is SOUR  

that is pretty much the extent of my personal life these days (Surfing the net and making tea)

now watching Donald trump and JP Morgan's Ghost rap :  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cP6VqB4klpQ

[Meh]

I had some really good cheese today. It made my day. That might be bad. But it is true.

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I always overcook hamburgers including tonight. Still good though.

That isn't post worthy but it is my evening thought.

[Hopalong]

I think a good meal is post worthy!

I'm on a soup kick. I am trying pretty hard to stuff myself with all the veggies I can manage, and soup fills me up. Made this one last week.
http://www.slate.com/blogs/browbeat/2013/1226 a_vegetarian_white_bean_and_kale_soup_recipe_that_doesn_t_taste_vegetarian.html 

Awesome. Lasted me a week including giving a bunch away.

I had no idea they sell parmesan rind. Yummm.

My next one is black bean and pumpkin soup.

I'm going to eat beans until I have beanstalks growing out my ears. My pattern I'm working on:

Breakfast: eggs or a green smoothie made in my ancient VitaMix with pea protein, spinach, parsley, frozen banana, frozen berries (spirulina, coconut oil, turmeric, dash cayenne, dash ginger, and some agave). Lunch: Bean-based soup--sometimes with sardines thrown in--and an apple. Dinner: Rice or quinoa with nuts, and wine.

If I eat like this consistently I feel soooooooooooooooooo much better. So this spring I dang well better get my little garden beds going, if I can figure out some way to keep the deer out of them that won't break the bank.

Boat, is there a patch of dirt near you that you could plan a wee garden in?

xo
Hops

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Guy (manager) at the company where I work has been flirting with me.

I'm not sure if he is teasing me for the fun of it or what exactly.

I want to go to his desk and ask him directly. He often comes over to my work area and then starts talking about the plants I have on my desk etc.

I shouldn't write this but he is also a black dude and I am not black

I'm really too shy to flirt back with him and at my age I kind of feel like maybe I shouldn't  (especially at work)

IDK... I have no clue what my co-workers around think about it. It's pretty blatant.  I'm shy,   it feels like just another situation to cope with, slightly entertaining but still?????

[Hopalong]

Hmm, that's...fun, Boat!
Never mind color.... When you get to my age you realize all those old fears mean nothing, when a kind, good person is available. (Skin color is a miniscule genetic variant that means ZIP, evolutionarily. Amazing PBS program years back blew my mind on that. We're all black. Some visibly. "Race" is a made-up concept that our culture is incredibly ignorant about. Enjoy!)

Ever thought of saying one day, "Are you flirting with me?" With a smile?

xo
Hops

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@ Hops yah    It's been entertaining though I think I have decided to not take it seriously. I heard a conversation between him, another manager and a co-worker that were talking about his personal life and how the other manager has only known him to have "ladies"... that is literally what was said "The whole time I've known him he has only every had ladies not girlfriends.

I guess you are probably right about color, I stress out wondering if I am going to fit in with somebodies friend's and family... sigh   but that isn't even going to happen in this case


I think somebody asked him directly if he had a girlfriend.

Shrug, I always find relationships to be like a pointless distraction that doesn't go anywhere.

But yes, I will go ahead and ask him "Are you flirting with me"...      And he will probably just say yes I think your cute etc.

[Hopalong]

We have a married UPS driver who is quite the ladies' man and flirts with me regularly.
I found the most fun was first to confront--once he let on he was married, when he
starts up I'll instantly say stuff like, "You are a bad terrible married man."

And when he comes in I just pipe up something like, "Good morning you bad person."
I always just refer to him in some way as "Bad." (Which, on a serious level, he is, but
he's also human...and this is his flaw. He hunts too, which gives me the opportunity
to greet him as "Bambi Murderer.")

And he starts laughing and just takes himself off.

But the flirting is still the water he swims in, and for this weary old fish, it's nice to see
a sparkly grin. Reminds me I used to be a mermaid.


Hops

[moonlight60]

Dear Hops ,

You are a Sparkly Mermaid xoxoxoxoxoxooxox
So Much Love to you and then more.
You are a Darlin' Darlin'.....<3



Love always,
moonlight

[Hopalong]

Back at ya, Moon.

MUCHLY,

Hops

[Meh]

Another term I've just heard for the first time: "Reactive Attachment Disorder" :   http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/reactive-attachment-disorder/basics/definition/con-20032126

It's probably basically me. IDK another term of what is wrong sigh, I am kind of drunk atm going to sleep soon

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I want some faux-chocolate jewelry http://www.inofashion.com/tasty-jewelry-inspired-by-delicious-cake-from-oriona/olympus-digital-camera-4/

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My roommate and her son both have the flu and violent vomiting. I really hope I don't get sick, taking vitamins right now.

Not sure if they got the flu or food poisoning. Seems like flu but no respiratory issue.

I don't feel as if I am very compassionate though I'm just grossed out to be honest.

If it was somebody I cared about personally I would feel concerned for them. I think this is normal right?

People that one doesn't love there is not a lot of compassion for? Or do you have compassion for everybody?

[Hopalong]

Depends, Boat.
Seems like you're asking whether you might have empathy issues.

I don't know. I do know that extended stress and adrenalin and survival
mode brought out a harder side of me, during an awful decade. I do think
poverty and homelessness can change people.

Normally, or for most of my life before that, I reverberated with empathy
and compassion...it was kind of my default.

I still have those values. But today, I recognize more than rather than an
automatic response, sometimes it's a thing where I pause to remind myself:
I believe in compassion. I believe I'm oriented right when I allow myself to
feel it. And then the empathy, and compassionate response, are suddenly
there again.

I don't think it matters if you are automatically empathic/compassionate,
or if you pause and tell yourself (if you want to): I'd like to feel more
compassion for these people.

What matters, imo, is that you discover the benefits of feeling connected
to others.

xo
Hops

[Meh]

As always you have very thoughtful responses Hops