I have a heaviness in my heart tonight that is not because of my mom's condition only, which is of course extremely hard and sad, but a rather normal course of events, even a blessing.
But now.......my sister's daughter is severely addicted and currently missing...it's been a yoyo of a life for the last year or so, but I never heard my sister sob the way she did tonight. She has given up (had to, just had to) and her daughter seems determined to end her life, or her addiction demon has determined that.
I am just so sad. So much has been done, so many treatments, so many interventions, believe me when I say, it is the end for my sister....her daughter will either make it or not, but her body is already so severely damaged....oh it's just so awful. This beautiful, highly intellegent young woman, near death by self loathing and the disease of addiction. I will hold my children tight tonight (even if they squirm) because my sister asked me to, for her sake.
I apologize in advance for being so needy, I just have to say how sad I feel right now. and.....
Please, if angels exist, cradle my beautiful neice tonight....