Hiya'll:
Close, I was 16, I think?
I was rereading and just wanted to clarify that by this I meant that I was somewhere around 16, I think, re the experience I was referring to of mine, discussed on the other thread (I think called: "Is it ok to say "I hate you"?), where my mother said: "I hate you" to me.
Just that when I reread it looked like I was arguing what age you were, P, when your step-dad called you evil.
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hahahaha!! N-extreme-o!! "I was 17" !! "No you weren't. You were 16!!"
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Communication.
So tricky eh? A missed word or two here or there can make all the difference sometimes eh?
Oh P, yes, your mum was like a poor cult member, in a way. She was the only member, besides her leader though eh? It is sad.
To be that hooked. I imagine she was abused too, emotionally, by him?? Did she worship him/obey him/follow his direction like a good little cult member? Man! It's scary to think of being in such a state!! I think it is very scary.
those icons meant I literally had a good sob.
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Now I don’t have to run. I can cry.
It's a release. It's releasing the hurt. Sorry to think of you crying, P, but glad for the release it must be.
Like what Mum said before about going through or sitting with our pain and just feeling it (hope I got that right and I'm sure others have mentioned that). It is necessary, I think. And it won't last forever. But it's necessary to help get rid of it.....release it and let it finally go. It's a good thingy in the end......crying.
We all need a good cry now and then. Like a good laugh eh?
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Thankyou both too for reading and feeling.
Sela
