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reallyME

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #15 on: January 10, 2008, 01:55:20 PM »
hug to you Lighter

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #16 on: January 10, 2008, 03:40:50 PM »
I'll take that hug, RM.

Thanks.

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #17 on: January 10, 2008, 04:19:51 PM »
Me too, (((((((((Lighter))))))))))))).

That book peeled off a layer of my eyeballs.

A side note: one thing I LOVED about that book was that at the time, the author, Steven Carter, had his name on one book called Organizing Your Closet.

Very cheery struggling-writer story.  :)

Lots of love to you today,
Hops
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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #18 on: January 10, 2008, 08:42:24 PM »
Thanks for that big hug, Hops.

I feel like throwing up right now so not going to stay up and post much.

::wondering who I gave all my old books to::

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #19 on: January 10, 2008, 09:26:15 PM »

Hi lighter, :oops:  (Sorry lighter)
Hi Lupita).   

You know that saying, If a woman will tell her age, she'll tell anything... :lol:

Anyway, the main reason I come to the board is in search of wisdom about my present stage of foolishness.  She (wisdom) is timeless and I believe ageless.

tt

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #20 on: January 11, 2008, 06:53:46 AM »
tt.... all the sudden, my age doesn't concern me one little hankey, lol.

I stopped counting about 6 birthdays ago...... reallly.  I coulnd't remember how old I was if I wanted to tell you, for a while there. 

I wouldn't allow anyone to plan a celebration, etc. 

It was a private mourning....

my birthday.....

for many years, lol.


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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #21 on: January 11, 2008, 07:04:44 AM »
The thing that strikes me is that time just simply flies.  When I tell parents of young children that before they know it their kids will be grown they cannot fathom it and neither would I at that young age but I look back and it has been 30 year since I graduated high school, 20 years since I had my baby who just got married and 6 years since I finally hit the brick wall and took my life back-away from my mom!  It is a runaway freight train with no brakes!  Life is truly a vapor.
Kelly

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #22 on: January 11, 2008, 08:42:31 AM »
Lupita,
I am 38. And I learned in AA that there are teenagers who are way wiser than I am. Some of us "get it" early on, and some of us take a while to see where our lives can be helped. I am grateful that I am one of the people who looks for a way to make my life better, as there are many who never look to see what damage they are causing.
Love, Beth
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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #23 on: January 12, 2008, 08:31:49 AM »
Hi everybody, thank you for your nice responses.
Grat, I never thought you would be so young. I am sorry that you are so young and struggling. I wish I was 38 again.LOL.

Dear Laighter, your post was so deep, and so interesting. I just wook up. On January or 2007, one year ago I opened my eyes for the first time. Not knowing anything, being so cinfused, so deperate. I slept walk throu fifty years of life.

It happened when I thought I was an N mother and I felt so guilty and so sad about my son, and found the book children of the self abosorbed.

Then I knew I was not an N because N do not feel guilt, do not feel remorse, and never rectify. I have always apologized to my son when I screwed up, I always invited my son's friends to our house and fed them and drove them to the movies, and promoted his talents. As opposed to my mother who isolated me totally, even from my own sister and brother, did not allowed visitors, and always told me that the only person that I should love was her because she was the only one who would give a kidney to me.

So, it was difficult to like people or to love people, when I was punished even when I made nice comments about my aunts, or anybody else. My mom got mad at me.

So, after reading that book, I knew, I was a co-N. Cnfused as a mad cow, blind, sleep walking all the time. Fortunately I let my son go to live in university dorms at 17, so I did not damage him more.

My son says I was a good mother. He loves me. That tells me I was not so bad. Not and N for sure.

So, the point is that some wake up at 20, my son wook up at 17, when he went to university, and now he is excelent person.

Others weak up far much later. Some never wake up and sleep walk thougrh life until death.

I have been so empty these last days, that it was hard to post.

I see so many people walking in circles, but there is nothing you can do when somebody is deaf, blind, difficult to help when you have no strenght.

Like in the airplanes, they say, you have to get your own oxigen mask first, before you try to help your child. You cannot help your child if you are not breathing well.

Same way with beach life recuers. Some times they have to nock off the rescuee to be able to help him or both will drown together.

I dont make any sense. I am empty today. Blunt.

GFM wants piano lessons from me. She is coming today. How can I say no to her? My son, what would he want me to do? I tried to ask him but he did not asnwer the phone that I pay.

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #24 on: January 12, 2008, 08:43:45 AM »
A good post.  I could hear and feel your anxiety.  I like the analogy of sleep walking-you are line of a zombie walking through life.  Pity is that is how our n moms want us.  Mine wants me all docile and shaking my head yes to everything she says.  Yes Mommy Dearest!
Kelly

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #25 on: January 12, 2008, 08:47:39 AM »
Dear friends, I have no idea what I meant with my previous post. I do not know what I want for you. If you tell me what to do, I probably wont do it. if you tell me soory you feel that way, it makes zero impact on me. So, any answer you give me will be welcome. I feel so flat.

I just pray the Lord to please, keep my son safe, because he has suffered so much. Being an only son of a single lonely mother struggling through life is not an easy job.

So, that is the only thing I am praying for now. Zero excitement. Zero energy. A pile of dishes accumulated all week in the kitchen, dirty clothe to wash, I refuse. My hair looks so ugly.

Hello Hopalong, today I am asking questions, I am not offering help, I am not being "intellectual". I hope that you see this.

Plus, they hired a new choir director at the church and she just killed yesterday the little self esteem I had. I hate choir directors.

Is that the only thing for which I feel so bad today? Or is it a combination of losing my son to an N family, not being appreciated at my job, so many things.

Life is difficult, then you die. It is over.

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #26 on: January 12, 2008, 08:48:53 AM »
OH OVERCOMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I can relate to that so much dear girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #27 on: January 12, 2008, 09:06:49 AM »
lup-You sound depressed dear friend.  I remember the house work and laundry getting overwhelming while I lay in bed feeling sorry for myself!  Can you get on some meds?  Or take vitamin D for energy?
Kelly

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #28 on: January 12, 2008, 09:09:20 AM »
I am falt. Depressed physically. Exhausted of so much work. Tired. Not sad. I think I am not sad.

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Re: How old are we?
« Reply #29 on: January 12, 2008, 09:19:49 AM »
Do you live where there is much sunshine?  It was dreary around here and all I wanted to do was sleep!  Yesterday the sun came out and I was just basking in it!  We lack vitamin D when we do not get sun.  This deplets our energy.  Take cod lives oil or vitamin D and your energy levels should go way up!
Kelly

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