((((((((((((((axa)))))))))))))
Just as I am/was. At 15 though, wondering what was wrong with me. I know there are some things you post that are dead on with me.
I know that feeling when it carries on year after year, even when leaving the dysfunctional home, because we take ourselves with us.
In my journey, my problems were bits and pieces of each and every self-help book....no definite one.
.....and yes the birthdays come faster. I joined here at 68 and 69 now looms. Imagine. I don't look 69 though. I am taken for 45-50, but my thoughts are 68-9 years old, as is my body. My mind in another way feels young as are some of my actions. Sometimes it is said that if we really missed our childhood (really never had a good one) we become a bit stilted in our maturity until our mind catches up to out bodies. Ns however, and alcoholics seem to act the age they were when either was determined in their minds. N here was 13 when he realized alcoholism and most of the time acted like a 13 year old.
I had my last leg x-ray today and when I left, Dave, the male nurse, who saw me through a broken ankle in 2003, said "I'll see you next time!!!"
Hang in there and remember "It was not your fault"!
love
Izzy