Your Own Power

[Ami]

I think that there is an "objective" state which IS emotional health. I think that it has certain factors. It is not "static",but stays within a certain balance.
 I think I have been there, so I know where I want to go.
 Today, I feel almost up, from underwater, maybe 5 inches.
 As I face truth( and people help me), I float out of distortions,in an easy way. The lies are the glue that keep you sick(IMO) .When the glue is removed, you come together.If there are thousands of lies and distortions ,it will take longer, fewer,it will take less.
 The answer is simple, but the path  seems long .
 Today, I feel a sense that I am back at age 14, when I made a conscious choice to believe my M's reality . I can "see"now how my M is a "fool" about life. She is like N Doofus(Bones "friend").
 I need to take the blinders off my eyes , and see life, as it is. That includes seeing myself, honestly, good and bad.
 Excessive shame is a distortion. Feeling like you are "bad' is a distortion. The reality is that you are human. I am almost there,but not quite.
 Shame was the vechicle which my M used to denude me and attach me to herself. It seems like it does not want to let go, so I will keep facing truth,until shame  has no grip .                                    Ami

[Ami]

I have been thinking about this topic. I was talking to my friend about it and he said that I caanot go back and be the "way" I was, b/c young people have a certainty about life that you can't have as an adult.You see shades of grey more, as an adult.
 That is true, for sure.
 He said that you have to examine present feelings and they will take you to the issues you need to heal.
 I wonder if this could happen, though.
 I had an accupuncture treatment on one of the major stomach points( near the belly button) and I was centered for 3 days. I was very peaceful and" knew "who I was. I was confident, in a quiet way.
 Could you get this back again? I know it may seem like a really stupid question,but what do they say--there are NO stupid questions(lol)     Love    Ami

[Overcomer]

Well I do not know if you can go back but I do have a question about acupuncture.  Have you heard if it can take away pain in your ovaries?  I always have pain in my side and in my lower abdomen and lower back.

[Ami]

Dear Kelly,
 I ,always ,think of you b/c since Scott died ,I have not gotten a period. Many mother's  ,who lost kids, never got their periods ,again.
 As far as accupuncture, I bet it could help you. I really do. You have to find someone who is good, highly recommended.

                                                                       Love   Ami

[Ami]

Dear Bean,
 Are you saying that we have to let go of our fearful attitude toward life? Thanks for your response , Beans.        Hugs,    Ami

[Overcomer]

Thanks Am!  Wow I wish I could stop!  But I want nothing terrible to happen to make that happen.