Dear PP,
Maybe a booster of B-12? Oh, it's so hard - not having a definitive solution to offer.
One thing at a time is all I know to try... and I began with just a good quality multi-vitamin and extra B12 tablet. It really helped!
Oh, and the pampering kinda stuff I began was nothing too fancy at all really... just some lavender bath bubbles & a candle for atmosphere, some quality lotion (dry skin was making me feel all-around

), a small bottle of expensive hair conditioner, and a new book. Oh, and I bought one of those fingernail buffing pads with 3 sides, for 3-step polishing that lasts. lol... I know, but this was quite something for a person like me who hadn't paid any attention at all to such stuff and never considered I was worth the added expense of a few luxuries.
When I was young, I thought I would be a-okay at this stage of the game. Instead I feel worse than I did when I was a teen. So frustrating.
Yes. I recognize this.... and pp, nothing I've found is better than surrounding yourself with people who will keep assuring you that you really are a-okay.
Your mind has not yet awakened to that fact, but I see it and I am sure that others do, too! It's just so very hard to be needy and vulnerable in front of the very people who can let you lean a bit, till you feel stronger. I pray, I lean on God, I know that He loves me... but He keeps saying - you need people, too!
I've tried to fight that as much as anything in my life, but it's an undeniable fact. And I don't mean "need" in an un-healthy way... just that we are each made for relationship, imo, and when we don't make ourselves available for that, despite the risks, we suffer for it.
Hope that makes sense and doesn't feel overwhelming to you. I know it's hard stuff.
Love,
Carolyn