Dear Juno,
I do understand. And Gjazz is right... you are going forward so bravely!
Maybe everyone doesn't have times of feeling extra sensitive, but Isure do... and I know what you mean.
It's alot less now that I'm not so preoccupied with other folks' actions and reactions.
Sounds like you have had plenty of experience around women who may be... envious( ?) of your qualities? Or they feel threatened in some way?
By the way, I have never understood that sort of "I have the same ____ as you, but...." comment, followed by the look.... like... how dare you have it, too? lol
Who has time for that stuff? Half the time, I don't even notice what someone is wearing. Just really not that observant.
And I don't know, but at times when I've felt very unsure of myself and gone about expecting difficulties with people... well...
do you think maybe you adopt a sort of poker-faced expression? I used to. Still do, at times, with people I don't trust.
Sometimes I've wondered about it.. as though there's a giving off some sort of signals, maybe.
Certain people seem to pick those up in a slanted way, and they're intimidated?
Little do they know that you're just trying to get over your next hurdle and struggling along like everyone else.
Really, I don't know... and some people are going to be miserable and try to treat us miserably no matter what sort of expression and vibes we're giving off, so I'm not suggesting that you greet everyone with a big grin or anything. It's all kinda a mystery to me, too.
I've only recently heard of the SAMe product, but was curious about it, too.
Things get a bit dark for me when I'm not constantly swamped with "to do's" and I'd like to turn that around.
Will do some research on it and may consider giving it a trial, too.
And Juno, you're at a time of great change... in flux, you know? Sometimes being at your "best self" may just mean that all the old defenses are fully functioning... and that is not necessarily the healthiest place to be. It can feel really naked as those mechanisms drop away, but if they didn't... there'd be no room for the new, better stuff to move in. At least that is - ahem - my theory.
((((((Juno))))))
Love,
Carolyn
P.S. Hi Gjazz... and thank you for bringing up the SAMe product. Good to meet you here! Carolyn