Why Isn't My M Returning My E mail--Do You Think?

[Ami]

Thank you((( Bones, Erin, Seasons, Lise, Amber))))). This incident and your responses really helped me to face another slice of reality.
              xxxxoo  Ami

[BonesMS]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Ami)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Bones

[Ami]

Back at YOU (((((( Bonesie))))))    from all us girls----Whitie , Blackie and Ray!                        xxxooo  Ami

[debkor]

Hey Ami,

I love my NF.  She may love back or not or limited but as incapable as she is to love or what extent is about as incapable as I am to not.  I have accepted that from both of us.  It does not mean that I will except unacceptable behavior. 

She has not spoken to me in months after a confrontation and intervention for her children.  She has also not did a thing about it and ignored all warnings and in trouble again with the services back in and this time her children may be removed.

She is speaking to her mother about me and I know she is in a lot of pain but afraid to come to me.  Yes I would open the door but things will not change.  Reality is reality and I cannot pretend as she cannot get real...but I do love her and have great compassion for her for she is so very sick. 

You can love  her Ami and keep your boundaries.  As far as what do we think about things they do.....as my T told me.....They don't think normal as others...So I don't question it anymore because I just don't know. 

Love
Deb

[Ami]

Thank you, Deb. You said a very simple yet profound thing "they don't think normal". I just hope to God *I* can.   Warm Wishes Deb,
                                                                                   Ami

[Nonameanymore]

Hey Ami,

I really do admire your ability to feel kindness towards your M and the ability to still fell love for her. It shows that she didn't manage to kill your kindness and compassion and your hope for a peaceful reconciliation.

P.

[Ami]

Well, after I find my true self and extricate it from my M, *I* want to have love inside me. She will destroy me ,for sure, if I am consumed with hate for her.
     xxoo Ami

[Ami]

Hey Ami,

I really do admire your ability to feel kindness towards your M and the ability to still fell love for her. It shows that she didn't manage to kill your kindness and compassion and your hope for a peaceful reconciliation.

P.

Dear P,
 If you look on my Blackie/Whitie thread, you will see how angry I am at my M. I really, really am. I don't know if I will ever be able to engage with her other than e mail and maybe not even that. However, in the larger scheme, my desire is to love the Child of God she is .
 I really want to so that for my own sense of self.                  xxxooo  Ami