~ We moved to the burbs when I was nine, and as soon as I got my allowance, I felt free! so, yes, a little nine-year old girl getting on a bus and riding for an hour or so, all the way downtown, to get to the library - I am having all sorts of flashbacks today after the Library postings, and so many things are falling into place, now. I was never afraid to head out on my own, ever, for I guess I always felt safer away from the house alone, even downtown, than I did in the house with my NMother - and that is a big 'aha' moment for me, today.
My NDad worked on Sat, and it is interesting, in retrospect, that my NM didn't bat an eye letting me head out on my own - I just had to be home by the time the street lights came on! Hmmm, more flashbacks, thoughts explaining so much of who I am and why, and all healing.....
Like I have said so many times before, I am so thankful for this group.
(eyes puddling, now, but good, healing tears....).
~just got another flashback - I begged to be sent away to boarding school - every year I begged to be sent to any boarding school, even though I didn't know anyone who went to one - I remember reading about a religious one and begging to be sent there.... and it wasn't because we were religious, but I thought is sounded like a safe place..... wouldn't you think that would have been a red flag for someone, anyone, when a little girl begs to be sent away to boarding school, year after year?!!!!!
