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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Meh on March 19, 2026, 10:56:12 PM »

What a great assignment...to go choose a stuffie that comforts you.

My dog is a living stuffie who loves disemboweling the manufactured ones. I finally stopped getting them because bending over and over to get fluff off the floor couldn't continue.

I went on a hunt for strong, unstuffed toys. What a relief to find some. As long as he's chomping, he's happy. And in the morning and at night, he's a warm, living hug of a companion who is clamped to my side like a barnacle. I can feel my BP going down and my breathing relax...he is my partner. My source of loving touch.

I remember the first time I handled a Gund stuffed toy. A revelation! Doesn't matter if it's a placebo effect, I believe the endorphins studies.

hugs
Hops

Dogs = Oxytocin, Dopamine, and Serotonin... no wonder people love them.

One day I got a dog out of a cardboard box of puppies in this town I lived in as a kid and it probably cost 15.00 it was some kind of fluffy orange chow. Like growing up we didn't take dogs to a groomers ever never. And they didn't cost thousands of dollars and there weren't forms and paperwork to fill out. So many many things in life used to be different. Now dogs seem like a luxury product. Getting a dog was a small town commonplace thing if someone's dog had puppies they would sell them for a minor cost just to get rid of them all.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Meh on March 19, 2026, 10:06:16 PM »

The "Wellbutrin effect" on executive function usually comes down to its impact on Norepinephrine (energy/urgency) and Dopamine (focus/reward).

I don't believe I have REAL anhedonia or have ever had it really.  ???

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Meh on March 19, 2026, 10:00:31 PM »

In the past I took Wellbutrin and I magically just got more stuff done but as far as anxiety/depression goes I didn't feel a mood change. It seems Wellbutrin is used for ADD sometimes though it wasn't why it was prescribed to me.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Hopalong on March 19, 2026, 05:46:29 PM »

You are sharing such CHEWY information, Meh! Thank you.

I can so relate to The Mechanic and The Glitch. Wow, how did they know?

My ADD understood all of them, and they were delightfully described. Brilliant. (I'm not a neuroscience fan, but when someone practically makes it poetry, I'm all in.)

Especially, "Your gatekeeper is missing." That made me laugh out loud. I'm very grateful to the source whenever I laugh out loud, btw. And truth is so good to hear.

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Hops

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Farm Journal - 2025

« Last post by Hopalong on March 19, 2026, 05:37:25 PM »

If you enjoy woodworking, you could make amazing hangers from found branches....

(I watch too much YouTube.)

LOL
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Hops

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Meh on March 19, 2026, 04:24:30 PM »

"True" ADHD is largely genetic, but ACEs (Adverse Childhood Experiences) can physically re-wire the brain to look exactly like ADHD."

???

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Meh on March 19, 2026, 04:19:15 PM »

Sometimes I think I shouldn't be posting on two threads but also sometimes I think I need to create categories of stuff. idk

I don't feel like describing this but I guess I will take a deep breath and slow down.

- ugh and
- I typed in some responses to random metaphors generated by AI and AI is telling me this:
"You have High Latent Inhibition (HLI) deficiency paired with Hyper-Association.

The Mechanic: Most brains have a "gatekeeper" that filters out "irrelevant" data (like the traveling salesman or the history of ancient rocks) to stay on one topic. Your gatekeeper is missing.

The Result: You don't just see a "river"; you see the physics of banks, the history of timekeeping, and the social coordination of meeting at a rock.

The "Glitch": Because your brain is processing five high-definition "tabs" at once, your Working Memory (the "RAM") crashes. You forget the original point because your processor moved to the next tab before the first one "saved" to the hard drive."

I'm not sure if this is ADD or a stress response or executive dysfunction, low IQ, prefrontal cortex under-development.

Not sure I'm trying to sort of figure out what is going on with my - rumination - my type of thought formations - omg I am tired.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: N.

« Last post by Meh on March 19, 2026, 04:14:38 PM »

Thanks everybody for your replies I will look them over slowly.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Farm Journal - 2025

« Last post by lighter on March 19, 2026, 01:28:00 PM »

You'd think Rust-Oleum ultra cover would be perfect.  Sorry it's giving you such trouble 😵‍💫

As for B....ask doc about Vagus Nerve Stimulator (VNS) for pain and inflammation management.  It's new....seems promising for multiple applications....just read an article on it in AARP mag, so throwing it out there.

Good luck with the bench, and sofa replacement....new storage options.

I've determined....many huge pieces of furniture, need to go, at the lake.  At least one, maybe 3 huge dressers.  One, single wide armoire, might come to the mountains, for youngest DD's wardrobe organization.  We're removing a huge old industrial cart, used to hang clothes....but first must remove br door, then wrestle it down stairs. Oof.  Might as well wrestle an armoire back up the stairs. 

Lighter

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Farm Journal - 2025

« Last post by sKePTiKal on March 19, 2026, 08:38:01 AM »

The bench project is driving me mad! This is the WORST paint EVER I have used. It's Rustoleum Ultracover - and with the first brush stroke the paint flows thick and smooth - and the next stroke pulls the paint right back OFF the surface. It's been sanded; primed. Paint thoroughly stirred; proper temp. So I'm coating and recoating. Glad I got 2 quarts!

I'm doing some in-depth cleaning elsewhere, because with how busy I've been I believe it's been a couple years since I did a deep dive. I can see the dirt now, too. Makes a difference. I don't like dust; I sneeze a lot. And I like being able to see out my windows. The next decorating project would entail replacing my beach sectional sofa... it's going on 20 years old. Still comfy, but worn leather. I have some things picked out but they don't exist in my local showroom... because a sit test is required with B and me.

While decluttering my oak hutch, I pulled out some very good rosemaling pieces that I've toted around different places I've lived. I think they'll really pop off the khaki mudroom wall paint. Now I just need hangers. I'm going to look at another metal cabinet for the room beyond the entrance. We're always looking for more storage. And next month's organization project gets me into the garage and the office (which can double as another guest room).

Looks the gov insurance has approved the surgery to replace B's pain pump - now just waiting on surgeon to schedule. The recovery time is about a month. So B could be back in the next few weeks... for at least 2-3 months.

I did order some seeds finally; and might still order some more herbs... but I'm definitely cutting back on planting this year. And shifting to things like ground cover, shrubs, fruit.