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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Friendship Moments: good or bad
« Last post by sKePTiKal on Today at 08:25:18 AM »Happy 39 Hops!! hee hee
Hol is in the transition from having a committed relationship (no official permissions) with C - to realizing his pattern in the relationship is pretty set in stone - and toxic. She is intellectually exploring the possibility of being alone and still having a full and interesting life. A LOT of energy going into that pondering. She is ALMOST able to take back her power and decide to do what's best for her - relationship be damned. But she got some mowing done yesterday - as well as refining some earthmoving projects & filling potholes. There's still a few other outdoor jobs, but she might need me on the bobcat while she's in the backhoe. She is planting more garden this year and working on her landscaping situation.
B's surgery is May 22. We have to get some preliminary tests done next week for that. And he has a pump fill on Tuesday. Wave to him around noon today Hops, as he makes the long run up 81. He'll be here this afternoon sometime. There is this quiet thrill of excitement at the prospect of being able to hug him again... he's doing pretty good and we're settling comfortably into the shared experience with only a few awkward corners... sharp edges. But then we've been at this for years now - and started from the (mostly) friend zone with the recognition we both needed some assistance and the other had those skills. The affection has grown organically over time. We make each other laugh. Just being ourselves. That just rubs salt in Hol's wounds.
I'm making a decided effort on finishing my moving in purge. I STILL have piles of Michael accumulated stuff. I may not need to buy food saver bags or aluminum foil for the rest of my life!! Oh - and battery storage boxes. Some the batteries I cleaned out of the console were 10+ years old. Some corroded; some just dead. I understand why he wanted a stock of them but I no longer need that many. Some prep inventory, yes. But it shouldn't take up huge amounts of space, IMO. I shouldn't have to wonder where "that" is when I need it.
My eyes have mostly settled down now. I very seldon notice floaters anymore. Still some light sensitivity that brings them on. Sunglasses are my friend. But bright LED lights are also hard.
I think this B trip is going to be a little short; he has a VA appt in June - if they don't cancel it again. And I think he's close to finishing up in SC. Which would suit me fine. We could plan to do some more fun things.
Hol is in the transition from having a committed relationship (no official permissions) with C - to realizing his pattern in the relationship is pretty set in stone - and toxic. She is intellectually exploring the possibility of being alone and still having a full and interesting life. A LOT of energy going into that pondering. She is ALMOST able to take back her power and decide to do what's best for her - relationship be damned. But she got some mowing done yesterday - as well as refining some earthmoving projects & filling potholes. There's still a few other outdoor jobs, but she might need me on the bobcat while she's in the backhoe. She is planting more garden this year and working on her landscaping situation.
B's surgery is May 22. We have to get some preliminary tests done next week for that. And he has a pump fill on Tuesday. Wave to him around noon today Hops, as he makes the long run up 81. He'll be here this afternoon sometime. There is this quiet thrill of excitement at the prospect of being able to hug him again... he's doing pretty good and we're settling comfortably into the shared experience with only a few awkward corners... sharp edges. But then we've been at this for years now - and started from the (mostly) friend zone with the recognition we both needed some assistance and the other had those skills. The affection has grown organically over time. We make each other laugh. Just being ourselves. That just rubs salt in Hol's wounds.
I'm making a decided effort on finishing my moving in purge. I STILL have piles of Michael accumulated stuff. I may not need to buy food saver bags or aluminum foil for the rest of my life!! Oh - and battery storage boxes. Some the batteries I cleaned out of the console were 10+ years old. Some corroded; some just dead. I understand why he wanted a stock of them but I no longer need that many. Some prep inventory, yes. But it shouldn't take up huge amounts of space, IMO. I shouldn't have to wonder where "that" is when I need it.
My eyes have mostly settled down now. I very seldon notice floaters anymore. Still some light sensitivity that brings them on. Sunglasses are my friend. But bright LED lights are also hard.
I think this B trip is going to be a little short; he has a VA appt in June - if they don't cancel it again. And I think he's close to finishing up in SC. Which would suit me fine. We could plan to do some more fun things.