Hi everyone,
I'm worried about this guy freaking out. PLEASE have an army of people there when you leave. Promise
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Last night I had images of many people surrounding me, protecting me. I try and sleep but faces were poping up in my head. It was wild. I woke
up at 3am and again at 5am. As the days are passing I have run into people I have cared about and had the chance to say good-bye.
Today I called the officer and left a voice mail. He works the late shift so after my H goes to sleep I will call him on his advise. His message said he would be out for the weekend so I would want to know who else to call.
I went to my D's school, she was sick again with this fever and cold.
I found out about the transfer procedure, I can fax any papers needed.
It was then I saw a good teacher friend. She is an Art teacher, I have known her since my D was in K.
We became friends I enjoy painting, so we shared our love for the Art.
We got to say goodbye holding back the tears.
Every little thing is falling in place. There are many things going on and they are all fitting like peices in a puzzle.
Today my H, I know he is getting worried. After he tried to bully me with telling me how I was not going to take our D. I just blew him off.
agreed to what ever he said. He was telling me how he was going to have me fly out and get settled, my D would stay here, not to pull her out of school, BLA BLA.
Then Im putting things in the garage, he starts telling me He's going to have me tested for drugs, I guess I had too much energy taking a few blankets out. BLA BLA.
Next he courners me saying lets talk, "Why am I so angry with him"?
I said " it's me don't worry about it".
He is telling me lets get a long for our D. Wait and he will move us all up to Dallas later. BLA BLA
Telling me to stop and listen, he's being told he has more surgeries and whatever issue with his blood clot.
(he was sure to give himself a shot in the stomach, so we could all know about it.) - He should have thought about his condition before he pushed me out with no parachute.
I just learned he will be gone first thing Thursday 6am 1hr away to the Doctors, So Im going to go by the U-haul place. They called and have the truck ready for Saturday. Im going to ask If I can start loading it for the few hours he will be gone and park it back until Saturday. It cant hurt to ask. It would be great to get most of it packed incase things turn bad.
This is going to be difficult for my D, no matter if her Dad is not always nice to her, He has been home with her the last two days, Im sure he is sending her mixed messages about us.
She will be torn and hoping she will trust me. I know she trust me but in saying that she will allow herself to express the anger about the whole crummy situation.
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