What would you think about this comment?

[mum]

Only: perhaps it's time for a new name....AWESOME maybe?  I am so happy for you.
I am sending you power and love.  Your interviews will go great.  You have such positive power, I have no doubt of it.

I know you are busy, but I would like to ask you something:
What measure or importance do you think positive thinking, or negative doubts had in your journey?  Equal parts?  Do you think the thoughts of others played a  part or are still?
This is the kind of stuff I mess with in my mind all the time, and since you have had some success lately, I just wonder.
Obviously, I believe people's positive energy and prayers assisted you, or I wouldn't be sending them.....I guess, more than anything  I'm  wondering how you were able to overcome fear like you did (are doing).
You are my hero!

[onlyrenting1]

Mum, still having problem with posting. I only have a few minutes on the computer here. expect my new phone on next week.

We got moved in our new Place and my D starts Monday.
My job is letting me get settled and will start me on the 21st.
The interview was informal and I was told before I left I was hired.


I responed to your question about the positive feed back but it didn't post.

I described looking at fear on a scale of big or small.
Big would be something I would say that made me worry why I would not easily do something.
Positive feed back from the POSTERs here, like yourself, would give a perspective to shrink my worry making my BIG FEAR to a SMALL Fear.

The Small fear would allow me to move a step closer to the fear.
 step-by-step it got me to the end result.
Without the Positive feed back I may have been frozen not able to move past the Big Fear.

I would keep in my mind about the Posters here and the feeling that people cared about what I was doing and understood what I was dealing with.
Living with an N and the confussion was difficult to understand on my own.
without YOU ALL,  here was a big factor that made it possible to have the confidence to move forward.


I love you all. ....working on a new name
onlyrenting

[vunil]

Wow, I just checked in and realize that the Big Move has happened.  Congratulations!  What great news. You sound happier and lighter already.

[sleepyhead]

Onlyrenting: You don't know who I am, but I've been following this thread for a couple of weeks now, and I just wanted to say a big WELL DONE! You have more people rooting for you than you even now. Your daughter is so lucky and blessed to have a mother like you, and you're teaching her to be a strong person who doesn't take crap from anyone. Good luck with everything!

[Brigid]

Only,
Your daughter is so lucky to have you for a mom.  You can take such pride in the strength you have shown.  

My prayers are with you that the job, new living situation, custody battle and all that goes with that moves forward as smoothly and positively as possible.

You are AWESOME.    

Brigid

[Anonymous]

only,
Just checking in; I've been keeping an eye out, watching your progress.
This will probably make you blush, but from the sound of a lot of posts here, I think you're kind of a hero.        

It took a lot of courage to stand up on your own two feet and say "I'm not gonna take this anymore!"
I hope I can stand firm against my brother as well as you have with your N.
God bless.

mudpuppy

[onlyrenting1]

You all are making me feel proud of myself.

Today My D started school and is loving it.

My phone will be turned on by Tuesday, so I will be able to be on-line and communicate more with all of you.

I have lots to do, will talk later.

Thank you all so very much, I never would have dreammed so many strangers would be there for me. I am truely Blessed

Onlyrenting

[mum]

Only, you got me crying...joyful tears.  That your daughter started school and loves it.........I know how good that must feel for you.  Mud's right, you are a hero! Mine anyway.

[Anonymous]

you are a hero! Mine anyway

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Mine too!    

mud

[longtire]

onlyrenting, I consider you family.  Just a member of the family that I haven't met yet due to the geographical distance between us. In any case, I know you have had a lot of poeple praying for you and your daughter as well as sending positive thoughts your way.

[Stormchild]

Hi Onlyrenting

I'm very new here so a bit shy of posting on your thread, but I have to add LOUD APPLAUSE      

You are so brave and you've gotten through so much. I'll be praying for you and your daughter too.

[onlyrenting1]

Thank you all so very much for your kind support.

in 1 week 1 day
1. I drove 1,500 miles,
2. secured a better paying job
3. got a place to live,
4. my D in school,
5. my utilities
6 today my phone.
7 left an unstable marriage
8. made new neighbor friends
9. family members that are helping me with kindness,likr i never known
10 most important you all here looking to encourage me along the way.
I was looking forward to the phone being turned on so I could get together again.

Im almost afraid to look back on this post to see how far I have come.

the boat has left thr dock, I have been reaching out for the life savers along the way, things have all come together as tho I have had some brave angles looking out for me.

my H leaves me e-mails to remind me how sick he is and can't be under stress because of his blood clot. He says he must stay in CA, so for now I will get a break.

He is mad at his brother for helping me, and his brother is upset at him for being out of line. My D has said very little about him. she has been busy with her cousins, Im sure it has helped her adjust for now.

I will write more later, got to go....OR

[Anonymous]

Only:

Number 11:  Free at last, free at last, thank God Almighty, FREE AT LAST.

You did it girl!  Yeah he will use Oh I am soooo sick deal to twist the guilt knife.  Shoulda thought of that before you left.  He will use this to get out of any further obligations to you and your daughter.  Consider  yourself lucky if this happens.  Soooooo proud of you for getting on that boat.  Your trip has brought back so many memories for me.  You will get past the fear.  You are strong, smart and capable to make your and your daughter's life.  Well back to humanity.  Love Patz

[bludie]

Onlyrenting,
I've been off the board for a while; a combination of reasons. Not sure where to begin in getting caught up. BUT had to say congratulations. When I don't have two school and one work deadline I will read through the thread and learn about your saga in the last few weeks. What I did need to say, quickly, is that I AM SOOO GLAD for you. Wahoo! You did it! You've got your life back in your own hands and I am so very, very happy about this and proud of all you've done in such a short period of time.

[onlyrenting1]

HI everyone,

Im still very busy, will be working on the DMV for texas.

My D is loving our place, she called several of her Ca,friends and was happy to talk with them.

She has not pushed contact with her Dad, at this time.

He sent me an e-mail to remind me how I had no Job, I was breaking up his brother's marriage.
he was moving and unless I paid for our dog  to fly here he ws going to put her to sleep.

I forwarded the messages to my BIL, he told me, just stay the course with what im doing . He said his older son  would help my H with the move , where ever that might be. his older son lives in San Fransisco.

He mentions nothing about our D,only expect Child services to check on
her soon.

My Niece is working on getting custody papers for me. I wrote a letter she will try using it to get the help I need.

My BIL and SIL re being most kind, they call both my D nd I to make sure we are doing ok. we are ll giving my D the encourgement to do well in school.

Its midnite here time to get some rest.  Thank you all for the support,

Do I ignore him?keep printing his notes for my records, should I change my e-mail?  any thoughts, he gets very rude.