Mindfulness and codependence thread

[lighter]

We've had cicadas, earthquakes, mudslides, a hurricane and flash floods, hail......might as well have an early blizzard, yup yup yup.

Lighter

[lighter]

I slept 10 hours last night. Up at 6am, with the Pug.....baby girl needs her Nummies.

As I move through tasks.... unloading dishwasher, preparing to load, etc. I nite tasks requiring attention, check in with myself about who's job they are, then decide to ask adult children to show me how they do each job.  I'm determined to remain curious, nonjudgmental and open to how they perform tasks.

I'm also determined to not just DO tasks, bc it lowers my anxiety, etc.

Slowing down. Noticing my inner world, paying attention to any upset parts, before reacting, sets me up to enjoy what I'm doing in the moment.  It also makes it easier to plan and problem solve, sans neeeeding anything to be different than it is.

I'm having a wonderful morning....simply seeing what's here.

Tasks done "wrong" mean I haven't taught well enough or at all.  BF doesn't know there's a bin for lint.....yet. I fell some impatient energy creep in......I back burner all tasks with him, as he's in quarantine recovering from Covid and Flu B. 

I tell my younger selves it's OK.  There's plenty of time.  We "have a plan." I feel they're letting go and calming down ....like they're releasing holds on my stomach and organs.  Centered self energy comes forward, without thinking about it

Good.

It's becoming muscle memory. 

I didn't practice so well at wedding and during cousin visit.  Not sure, but it might be about feeling trapped, biting back boundaries ( for the sake of peace) and allowing physical touch I should (maybe) be catching with short quick pocks(spl?)/slaps with small movement only at wrist, sans emotional upset on my part.  I remind myself, action is faster than reaction.  I can't stop incoming unwanted touch, without distance. Keeping distance is more reasonable.  That's a good plan.  I remember my mother teaching us to use our elbows, as she did, with our Paternal GF.

I find I'm calmer/less reactive/angry now that chosen responses are in place, bc younger Lighters wanted to handle things more aggressively. 

Reassuring, younger parts, they have every right to feel the way they do....
Reassuring them.....we have a plan ...we don't have to allow inappropriate behavior/words any longer.  They're entitled to feel, complain and respond...
helps.

Including them in problem solving...helps.

Visiting with them at the tomato garden bonfire..... checking in with them....helps.

Now....back to teaching and moving through my day mindfully, and in joy.  Yes.

Lighter

[Hopalong]

I like the idea of using elbows, especially in a booth or bar setting where "crowding" or "creeping" touches can sneak in.

Could almost move an elbow in a hail-fellow-well-met way, as it looks almost jolly. Meanwhile, it carries a point.

But you don't need me on self-defense. I'm just pissed at that guy. Yecchhhh.

hugs
Hops

[lighter]

After dental hygienist said she does it, I began oil pulling with coconut oil last night.  I don't hate it.  The jarred coconut oil, from Aldi's, tastes yummy.....flossed after with Dr Tung's brand floss....not sure why, but I  think it is gentler on gums and works very well.

I woke up and oil pulled through my morning chores..... didn't time it.  They say 5 to 20 minutes, but watching that clock creates anxiety.

Anyone else practice this?  One of my nieces has been doing it for years.

Lighter

[lighter]

Had dinner with nice neighbor lady, Charlotte, on Saturday.  Her life is so closed, and tedious and difficult..... very SAD.  I felt like a naughty child, breaking an enslaved child out, for the evening......and so began her villain arc.

She's never said No.  Never set a boundary. Never NOT worried, over things, outside her control.

Through a lovely breezy cool evening, on PF Chang's patio, we laughed and immersed ourselves in a lovely white wine, lettuce wraps, honey shrimp, beef with broccoli and a flight of desserts.  She can't (normally)drink alcohol, but one half glass, over 3 hours....was a short return to the life she used to have. Her eyes sparkled....she giggled.  I've never seen her giggle.

She understands..... she's going to feel like a villain when saying no to babysitting 2 rambunctious grandsons, setting a boundary, or choosing to not fret over her husband's meals....he has advanced Parkinson's....she changes 5 to 7 adult diapers, daily, with arthritic hands.  Her heart and lungs aren't good.

She sent a message Monday am ....she was feeling 100% better....feeling entitled to set boundaries, release outcome, and embrace humor instead.....God loves a good segue. 

A huge shift in POV....
she'd been reading about boundaries and feeling defeated at the thought. 

Another Amazon steps to the fire, ladies. 


Lighter

[Hopalong]

What a great service you did her, Lighter!

Reintroducing joy, self esteem, etc.

Bravoooo!

hugs
Hops

[lighter]

Thanks, Amber.  I think having several hours, away, did her as much good as having her (naughty self care) suspicious validated....celebrated, even.

I'll take her to lunch soon.  The weather is perfect for another outdoor patio meal, and she's looking like she needs a bucking up.

The oil pulling is decidedly a once a day or every two days practice.  Daily, now, with mornings the chosen time.  Will begin melting the solid coconut oil first, as I'm tempted to chew and swallow, like a child.  It's almost like candy, tastes so good.

Lighter

[Hopalong]

Hops here. And you're welcome.
LOL.

Very cool story and feminist me was sooo glad to read it.

hugs
Hops

PS You might find this podcast very interesting, especially about halfway through when she talks about codependency, and the culture that made it so powerful.
https://www.nytimes.com/2025/08/23/magazine/jen-hatmaker-interview.html#commentsContainer