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« Last post by lighter on March 18, 2025, 09:56:29 PM »
Misogyny session with T kicked off early....was upset, before it started, by recent events.....and I limit news..... something slipped in.
Nutshell....found the angry part ...
in darkness....watery darkness....she gestured around.....not speaking....wanting the situation to be marked and changed.
She stomped, splashing dark water.... she waved her arms.....she sat down.....sank into sadness.
I asked her to join me in the sacred space and she appeared by my side, actually against my left side, attached. She was very thin....in need of nourishment.
I extended light.... self energy......the part lit up.....glowed....then her face melted into her body...dropping inward....down....I assumed it was thinking giving in to somatic experience.....her body plumped up, as her face melted. Didn't draw that connection before.
Figured out that angry part/protecting the sad part, has been around 50 years, give or take. Angry/divorcing father raging at child exchanges...... projecting anger at mother onto daughters, who looked a lot like mum. Angry little man...... no used to not getting what he wanted. Someone needed to be punished.
Brought the sadness up....did I want to give it to the water? Fire? Earth? The light?
The light felt right.
Extended light through myself and into the part.....the melted face sizzled into bown black bubbles......smoked.....burned away.....the skin of the body followed, into the light it went ...sucked in......burned....leaving a roughly tween sized transparent body shaped form, no longer attached, at my side.
T encouraged me to bring my thoughts to self energy for now. To leave action (phone calls to reps) alone for now.
T said the small space, where part was "trapped" was likely trapped in ego.... didn't realize it wasn't alone. Feels protected now and I should speak to it, rather than from it, going forward.
I felt pressure at the top of my head....ears ringing while giving the sadness to the light....felt like expansion and more access to hearing.
T felt pressure top of her head ...talked about crown chakra.
This was the first, of many, sessions on misogyny.
I had a good Emotion Code appt last night. Left with a pain top of head, left side. Didn't last long. Felt really good, grilled shish kabobs, cleaned and ate with Dd22, brushed and flossed, then slept 8 deep hours.
Now.....after a walk leading to dinner of 5 more trees across a 3 trails in the woods, bc of high winds..... I'm home and shocked at how very exhausted my neck, shoulders, chest, heart and lungs feel. And a lottle sore.
I'm moving through my day....but stop to catch my breath. It feels like I'm holding my breath at the bottom of my lungs.....only top lobes taking in air.
It's evening now....had a productive day, but notice my abdominals and lower back feel fatigued now....also noticing neck, shoulders, and heart feel normal.
I've eaten 3 good sized meals, but my stomach feels empty.....growling most of the day. Very odd, but not unpleasant.....
decidedly it is pleasant.
Chatted with DD22, about the state of our world, as we had dinner. She can't eat past 10pm, bc tomorrow's blood draw requires 12 hour fast.
I'm gonna sleep well tonight.
Lighter
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