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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Farm Journal - 2026
« Last post by sKePTiKal on July 18, 2026, 09:27:05 AM »Smoke SHOULD be gone from here sometime Sunday/Monday (for you, Hops). Or so the AI weather "imagine-er" sez. Sigh. B can predict weather more accurately, by how much the metal in his body vibrates (what frequence it's at). I watch clouds, feel the barometer in head & sinuses. Neither one can predict the smoke tho because it's source is so far away. I think the closest is Ontario and the Boundary Waters (closed & evacuated).
Sounds like you and BN need to define what level of trust you both have - in yourselves and each other. At least establish a baseline. With a range, of more or less as certain triggers alert - quietly or loudly. And THEN, just go have fun without thinking about it. B and I are still working on our range of comfort/discomfort and fortunately our communication style is open and trusting enough - we can just remind/warn off each other - or throw a general "I am grumpy and this thing - whatever it is - bugs the hell out of me". That's usually enough to rebalance the energy between us. Which is amazingly sensitive and strong. And unspoken - most of the time.
I am spending a lot of my time enjoying that energy connection. It's a kind of dance - and he is joyously unpredictable & adorable in it - so I end up letting my hair down and playing right along with him. Lots & lots of emotional nutrition there! This is a new thing that I've not experienced in relationships before. Our trust "savings account" balance is increasing. The only thing I've noticed - and it's probably unavoidable - is how in-sync our energy wavelengths are. Both of us can be consumed (attention-wise) in personal pursuits or external to us things. And so the elastic of the energy stretches to give space that allows full attention to those things and then returns to our comfy "us" state of flexibility and stability again.
Yeah, there's an inherent risk in investing so much of oneself into a relationship; well aware. Especially at our age. But to be so risk averse that we choose to "be safe" rather than experience this... well, sorry. I'm old enough to enjoy the risk level that I barely acknowledged when a lot younger - just because it didn't end well then. It's nice to feel alive!
Sounds like you and BN need to define what level of trust you both have - in yourselves and each other. At least establish a baseline. With a range, of more or less as certain triggers alert - quietly or loudly. And THEN, just go have fun without thinking about it. B and I are still working on our range of comfort/discomfort and fortunately our communication style is open and trusting enough - we can just remind/warn off each other - or throw a general "I am grumpy and this thing - whatever it is - bugs the hell out of me". That's usually enough to rebalance the energy between us. Which is amazingly sensitive and strong. And unspoken - most of the time.
I am spending a lot of my time enjoying that energy connection. It's a kind of dance - and he is joyously unpredictable & adorable in it - so I end up letting my hair down and playing right along with him. Lots & lots of emotional nutrition there! This is a new thing that I've not experienced in relationships before. Our trust "savings account" balance is increasing. The only thing I've noticed - and it's probably unavoidable - is how in-sync our energy wavelengths are. Both of us can be consumed (attention-wise) in personal pursuits or external to us things. And so the elastic of the energy stretches to give space that allows full attention to those things and then returns to our comfy "us" state of flexibility and stability again.
Yeah, there's an inherent risk in investing so much of oneself into a relationship; well aware. Especially at our age. But to be so risk averse that we choose to "be safe" rather than experience this... well, sorry. I'm old enough to enjoy the risk level that I barely acknowledged when a lot younger - just because it didn't end well then. It's nice to feel alive!