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« Last post by lighter on November 21, 2025, 09:46:03 AM »I was hungry when I posted the above.
I didn't judge my choices. I didn't tell myself I'd eat this way or that.
I simply pulled out boiled eggs, half a cucumber, the last of the spinach, an avocado, avocado oil and apple cider vinegar. On the plate, I looked at the food......went for Nature's Seasoning .....read the ingredients....sugar....put it back on the shelf, bc I could. It wasn't a difficult choice.
I didn't even consider the chic fil a dressings in the fridge, or the candied pecans or apples.....nope.
I ate my plate....and really missed dressings and mayo and sour cream.....missed egg salad.....ahhhh condiments.
The cucumber went first. Interesting.
The end of the meal was about bites with some of everything.....and noticing I'd forgotten the lime. The lime and salt make it much better, IME.
As I reflect on eating clean......I see the patterns of eating "better" with my girls....to eat with them....the same.....not shame them.....hope we all decide to eat "best" together, eventually. That's obviously not a pattern working for me....any of us.
I shopped last night. Asked the girls if they wanted something. Brussel sprouts, Parmesan and saffron. Ok.
I got myself some beef chuck steaks, center cut pork chops to brine, a lamb shank.....and crunchy lettuce requiring a cleaning. No more soft lettuces for me.
I ate one of the leftover smash burgers, with lettuce bun/mustard/pickled jalapenos, and didn't fret over the cheese. The kids cooked whatever they had. and DD's bf cleaned the kitchen. I think I'll have the last smash burger with a couple easy over eggs, for breakfast.
One of my mother's cousin's passed yesterday.....her brother will be stopping by today, with his wife, in their camper....passing through from Florida. Very nice people. Not sure what we'll have for dinner, but I'm going to not think about it till after I've eaten.
I'm really focusing on NOT reacting/frenzy cleaning/over shopping in a panic, etc. I want more ease, focus on important things, like connecting and fellowship.....I want to play games/cards, enjoy simple food and remember good times.
Now.....food.
I didn't judge my choices. I didn't tell myself I'd eat this way or that.
I simply pulled out boiled eggs, half a cucumber, the last of the spinach, an avocado, avocado oil and apple cider vinegar. On the plate, I looked at the food......went for Nature's Seasoning .....read the ingredients....sugar....put it back on the shelf, bc I could. It wasn't a difficult choice.
I didn't even consider the chic fil a dressings in the fridge, or the candied pecans or apples.....nope.
I ate my plate....and really missed dressings and mayo and sour cream.....missed egg salad.....ahhhh condiments.
The cucumber went first. Interesting.
The end of the meal was about bites with some of everything.....and noticing I'd forgotten the lime. The lime and salt make it much better, IME.
As I reflect on eating clean......I see the patterns of eating "better" with my girls....to eat with them....the same.....not shame them.....hope we all decide to eat "best" together, eventually. That's obviously not a pattern working for me....any of us.
I shopped last night. Asked the girls if they wanted something. Brussel sprouts, Parmesan and saffron. Ok.
I got myself some beef chuck steaks, center cut pork chops to brine, a lamb shank.....and crunchy lettuce requiring a cleaning. No more soft lettuces for me.
I ate one of the leftover smash burgers, with lettuce bun/mustard/pickled jalapenos, and didn't fret over the cheese. The kids cooked whatever they had. and DD's bf cleaned the kitchen. I think I'll have the last smash burger with a couple easy over eggs, for breakfast.
One of my mother's cousin's passed yesterday.....her brother will be stopping by today, with his wife, in their camper....passing through from Florida. Very nice people. Not sure what we'll have for dinner, but I'm going to not think about it till after I've eaten.
I'm really focusing on NOT reacting/frenzy cleaning/over shopping in a panic, etc. I want more ease, focus on important things, like connecting and fellowship.....I want to play games/cards, enjoy simple food and remember good times.
Now.....food.