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« Last post by lighter on April 24, 2026, 12:07:59 PM »
Woo boy....... I'm glad you're feeling centered, Hops. I'm breathing like crazy, tryna make peace with having a special needs 34yo (nutsy sex driven) manboy in our orbit........the stepmom is SUPER reactive...... SUPER horrified at all interest in her.....mast**bating in public spaces......FBI shutting 👎 en his phone bc child p**n and he just stares at women.....any women. I just stepped out of his site... he stepped behind me.
::shudder::.
Aaaaand he and his dad dropped off the service pressure washer and are like fascinated children.....wanting to water the clover/yard/weeds......and it's creating such anxiety for me. I don't enjoy teaching when the seedlings are so at risk. My hyper focus is missing it's groove.
And
The.
Staring.
Gonna have to speak to his papa.....and maybe the son, in front of the papa.
The stepmom talks about her situation...... every time we see her..... exhausting for her, and for us.
My sister and I gave marching orders for chemical solutions.
I try to put myself in the dad's shoes.......
and I'm almost positive......raising a boy, in this rapey culture, would be something I tried to break, but this dad raised 4 children, alone, working 3 jobs. This son was the youngest.....raised by the TV.
Terrifying.
That we live such lives......the social media dia, porn and TV shows ....is overwhelming and everyone should feel some pressure/pain/shame about it, imo. I know I do.
Broken systems in a broke arse culture of extraction, and dominance.
Ahem.....
sorry about barfing that up on your thread, Hops.
I am glad you're not feeling any type-away about the Poet. Sort of amazing.
Lighter