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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on July 15, 2026, 12:53:25 AM »

I will say I am a little worried about the interview. It's just a staffing company and I worked for them before and the job they sent me on it turned out well I was hired permanently and stayed five years until I was laid off. But that was in a different region. I am worried about my location. I worry. I worry. I worry. I worry because that is what I do.

So anyways what is new.

I am just doing the game of connect the dots in my head to get through everything dot A to B to C to D and do it.

See, my soul keeps saying do NOT go deeper into the city NO NO NO NO. I want to live in the countryside and yet I have no money and no car right now so this is making very little sense.

The interview is this Thursday. It's not a big deal. I need to get back to work. It is and it isn't a big deal. Anyhow. I'm old. I go in and I talk to them and they look at me make sure I am sane.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on July 15, 2026, 12:46:23 AM »

As it turns out my friend wants to go hiking this weekend so I don't have to worry about socialite dressing this week.

I've got an interview. So I tried on a few ill fitting free clothing items I have ferreted away in bags. Not feeling great but it's mediocre fine enough. I'm going to bring my tote bag and change my shoes a block away because the only nice shoes I have are also rando freebies that I would never have purchased cuz they hurt. Doesn't matter.

I am thankful I only have one day this week I need to dress up for. And I am thankful I have something to wear that will be good enough.

The last interview I went on all the office people were dressed like shlumps. Something has changed not only are people super casual but nobody cares anymore about work. Distractions.

Tomorrow will be a good day I will get things done.
I will survive the week.
I have the weekend to look forward to.
Yes.

And thanks guys.
You know I just come here externalize and whatever.
I'm not heart broken about being socially incongruent. I just like to notice the noticing.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on July 15, 2026, 12:37:15 AM »

I do have an old trench coat Hops.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Mindfulness and codependence thread

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on July 15, 2026, 12:33:12 AM »

Yo Lighter.

She is probably having campfires somewhere.

On the beach.

Playing frisbee with glowing dolphins.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Hopalong on July 12, 2026, 09:11:55 AM »

Not only do twits not get to judge you, but if I ran the universe, YOU don't get to judge you! Wear a trench coat with nothing underneath and flash rude people.

Social anxiety sucks, any form of snobbery or exclusion sucks, and I completely love YOUR dress code. Dress for comfort and delight -- your own.

I wish you weren't in a just-getting-by financial situation. I feel it from some of our Village members and it sucks. Life's unfair but also wonderful. It all comes and goes.

Meanwhile, can't wait to hear about your next creative exploration. You are always an artist, imo.

hugs
Hops

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by sKePTiKal on July 12, 2026, 07:28:12 AM »

Find something that feels comfortable, looks reasonably "dressed up", and stop fussing. Dress codes can be part of the fun of certain events - Hol is going to a 20's themed house warming/wedding party. You are still YOU, regardless of your packaging... and who among that crowd has the authority to issue a "good housekeeping award" on your attire in the FIRST place??

Those people don't get to judge you, Hippy. That's where an experience turns "rude". I can remember kids doing that to me, simply because my clothes were home made. Then, I stopped caring about it... and then things got better.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on July 11, 2026, 11:58:40 PM »

Once I get my adulting done.

IF I get around to it I might try to drop into a thrift store and put myself on extreme budget for a crap dress i would only wear once ugh. Needing to impress people with clothes doesn't impress me I am too old, too tired, too bored of it, dressed up too much for work for people who didn't give a rats ass.

The worst thing that could happen is they uninvite me or have a malfunction.

These are not real problems. These thoughts are not real thoughts.

I will sit on it but I need to also not bail at the last moment.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on July 11, 2026, 11:35:49 PM »

Sort of had a plan to go to an event but there is a bit of a dress code which usually I can fake my way through but I ditched my stuff which was in storage so I have not a lot which doesn't seem to usually bother me but now I can't even scrounge my way creatively to correctness.

Contemplating my rudeness and also how it's kind of rude to have a dress code. Also contemplating my priorities and energy level and my focus. My need to focus on more important stuff. Now If I had a fun event I would have a suggestion but it would be - dress how you like, formal, casual, whimsical. It covers everything and it says go for it.

This is dumb that I would contemplate this. I feel like I don't need friends who have dress codes. So I got to struggle with this. Do I want to go. I'd prefer to lean towards creative camp.

Then there are the shoes. It's not enough to find a dress one must also find the shoes.

I almost forgot what my point is.

My point appears to be stress.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on July 11, 2026, 10:32:22 PM »

I'm tired.

Before I read I am going to type something.

Went for a walk. Thought I saw unusual movement on a plant so I bent down thinking I might see a frog or a snake quivering the stems. I didn't see a frog. There was a fake silver necklace chain. I pulled on it and it came out of the greenery & there was a charm on the necklace. I thought the charm was corroded it didn't look right. I absent mindedly held it in my hand and kept walking. After a few minutes I glanced at it again and it wasn't corroded from the weather as I thought it was it's like my eyes saw it wrong the first glance. The necklace had an initial on it the first letter of my name. It is a cheap girl style sparkly necklace. I put it on for a while and then took it off. It's just weird that I bent down thinking I would find some little tree frog landing from stem to stem. I mean I am in the city. The odds are not that slim that someone is going to find junk. Just thought it was a funky coincidence.

The movement was flower blossoms falling off the plant not a frog.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Farm Journal - 2026

« Last post by sKePTiKal on July 11, 2026, 12:15:37 PM »

Yes, Debbie was here when the power went out Sat night! She left early, because it dawned on me this was going to last awhile and when I set up the generator - I opted for the furnace instead of AC. Imagine my surprise when we finally drove into town at just how close this little tornado was to us! Just over the ridge to the west. We didn't do a lot that weekend; deck was still in progress. Last tweaks will happen next week.

Well, I'm hoping Lighter is living it up on a world tour! I'm sure she'll pop in soon. Board access being spotty might've just convinced her to go do real life stuff for a while.