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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on May 06, 2026, 11:26:44 AM »

I rarely play as I'm not very athletic or social but when I think about it the main forms of play that I recall are:

- trampoline park
- dog wrestling
- skimboarding

If I think of anything else I will put it down. I don't play that much. But frankly it seems to me playing is a physical practice at least it is for me.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on May 06, 2026, 11:21:43 AM »

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on May 06, 2026, 11:13:43 AM »

Sigh... yeah I know. I was shocked B's surgery was actually scheduled so soon. And insurance approved, no less.

I've tried to explain what's been going wrong to myself. And about the only thing I'm sure about is that AI/technology is gumming up what USED to work fine. Way too many reminders about appointments - text, email & phone call for instance. I mean, is anyone that brain dead that they need bi-weekly reminders for a month before an appt? Or maybe that's distracted, instead?

PLAY is a good thing. But there are so many different forms of it and different people gravitate to different kinds of things. Figuring out what is fun for you - when you've not indulged the urge for awhile - is the key. For instance, I don't think shopping is fun - a thrift store is an absolute nightmare for me. Or big concerts. We're allowed to not like what other people think is fun. I think I'd like a wildflower hike and botanical drawing session - which would bore some people to tears.

Thanks for validating that there are different kinds of play. - I think I sort of get down on myself if I don't play correctly as an adult. I don't really have fun too often. The last time I feel like I had fun was when I dragged a friend on a day road trip that was kinda fun. But was more fun was going to a trampoline park with my nephews many many years ago and let them beat me at nerf swords.

Being a consumer is something I'm burnt out on generally. I too don't always love shopping but I do like thrifting at times. Same on the big concerts I've definitely grown out the "being at the scene" experience. A wildflower hike sounds nice for sure. I would categorize a wildflower high as rejuvenating, peaceful, awe-inspiring. I wouldn't call it fun.

I feel like fun is when a person has uncontrollable smiling.

I love hiking and gardening and flowers it gives me like calm and peace but I don't think that is the felt-sense of fun.

Oh also playing tug of war with dogs is sometimes fun.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on May 06, 2026, 11:01:39 AM »

The text reminders must be super inexpensive so that is why they do it.

The reason I complain about it is because I worked for a healthcare system that made it a point to optimize everything continually and I didn't realize how good it was until I had to work through my current system which is more rural and I guess they likely just have a lot less money to work with so they don't pay staff to improve stuff.

I won't go on about it only that it's strange to me that every department and speciality requires another phone call.

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For sure people like different things. Last night I was realizing the voicelessness account I use is connected to an inactive email. Also don't recall the passcode for the voicelessness account. Was trying to change user name and write down the password info but I started looking at the pages more closely again and noticed the emoji things that don't work then tested the font.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by sKePTiKal on May 06, 2026, 07:03:21 AM »

Sigh... yeah I know. I was shocked B's surgery was actually scheduled so soon. And insurance approved, no less.

I've tried to explain what's been going wrong to myself. And about the only thing I'm sure about is that AI/technology is gumming up what USED to work fine. Way too many reminders about appointments - text, email & phone call for instance. I mean, is anyone that brain dead that they need bi-weekly reminders for a month before an appt? Or maybe that's distracted, instead?

PLAY is a good thing. But there are so many different forms of it and different people gravitate to different kinds of things. Figuring out what is fun for you - when you've not indulged the urge for awhile - is the key. For instance, I don't think shopping is fun - a thrift store is an absolute nightmare for me. Or big concerts. We're allowed to not like what other people think is fun. I think I'd like a wildflower hike and botanical drawing session - which would bore some people to tears.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on May 06, 2026, 12:25:47 AM »

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Board Changes

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on May 05, 2026, 11:40:48 PM »

Q: The email associated with my voicelessness account is inactivated. Also I do not recall my password my computer has just been logging me in for years but I'm trying to record my passwords somewhere as a life maintenance thing.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on May 05, 2026, 12:11:57 PM »

Yikes Skeptical, six months is too long.

Takes a lot of effort, phone calls, persistence, stamina to do healthcare stuff.

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by sKePTiKal on May 05, 2026, 10:49:02 AM »

30 days is standard for things like physicals - in fact, it's actually pretty fast. What blows my mind is when a person is really sick and feels like warmed up dog crap or in pain, and the earliest appt you can get is 6 months away!!

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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Anything again

« Last post by Dirty Hippy on May 04, 2026, 11:42:52 PM »

Tomorrow is Tuesday and my life is really passing me by.

I did find a quiet place with my laptop today and tried to focus.

All I really managed to do was go through my medical virtual chart and set an appointment with a new PCP same network but it's a whole month out.

I think I will refuse to complain about it.

My expectations seem to be too high. Sadly I recall having very good health care I guess years ago.