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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board / Re: Farm Journal - 2025
« Last post by sKePTiKal on August 24, 2025, 11:26:29 AM »Well, B left yesterday on the two day trek back to his place. He'll get unpacked and rested up about the time he has to pack up & get back here for his med appts. <rolleyes> He doesn't care about the driving.
While he was gone last time, I took Fenris (the 07 Jeep) to a garage. S'posed to be just for brakes & inspection and investigate why it would jump out of first gear. That turned out to be the clutch, and later, the transmission. Whoo boy... as slow as B is, it would've taken him a couple years to do all that. But, he's all fixed up now and B's been driving it; I drove it no problems this time. And I have a new place to get my lifted jeeps inspected. Instead of renting a vehicle to get him and all his "traveling tools" back & forth, I let him put Fenris to the test on this short turn-around trip. So far, so good. In a couple of weeks, he'll be towing a trailer and a heavy toolbox. More testing.
He's already had Hol's jeep in a garage tracing out an electrical issue for most of the year. But, it's not like he WANTS to work on it. Hol explained the problem she thought she had, and he just assumed responsibility for the work on his own - and then bitched about how she just dumps things on him. That is a totally unfair characterization of the situation; he's not even aware that he wouldn't just share knowledge with her - and let her fix it herself. OH NO... needs to make her the bad guy. To be fair, Hol does that to him quite a bit too.
I've been quietly watching the dynamics for awhile. Been pondering how these things happen... what part I'm playing in it too and owning that. It seems a lot like any time there are 3 people involved in something, someone's toes get stepped on and dissension seems to follow UNLESS, there's a person observing and speaking up, to head the whole act of the play off at the pass.
If 3 turns into 4 (Cody is a possiblity; being discussed but not with urgency) some of this will go away.
B's experience of "extended family" living situations is fraught with a lot of negative experiences. Hol & I have had our share, but we've continued to work through and improve things. That process is BRAND NEW to him. So, I've been paying closer attention to some of his "mutterings" and how he says how he's interpreting the interactions. Gathering more information. I have, I think, at least a direction to try now. Experiments are always good.
I am such a homebody introvert, that I almost never seek out new things to do, explore or try. And given his mobility issues and my lack of stamina and patience for large groups... we need to find things that aren't overly taxing. So I'm looking while he's gone.
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Meanwhile, I'm coordinating the elevator project & contractors. Found an external lift (1000 lbs capable) that costs a lot less than an internal one that needs an addition. Just have to cut a hole in the part of the deck I don't use. Talked to the guy who did the original glass replacement for me just after I'd moved in... he'll come out next week and look at rebuilding 3 sides of the decks (which are in sad shape) and sealing & painting the exterior.
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AGAIN, garden is a total disaster. Went from cold & wet in June, to abominably hot & dry - and SOME of my "itchies" turned out to be bug bites. SIGH. I still have herbs and some bulbs to plant. I am getting the sewing mess in the studio under control - mending, a historical sewing project (chemise), and tying up loose ends of the interior remodel.
Friend Deb is coming out for Labor Day weekend. Who knows what we'll get up to.
While he was gone last time, I took Fenris (the 07 Jeep) to a garage. S'posed to be just for brakes & inspection and investigate why it would jump out of first gear. That turned out to be the clutch, and later, the transmission. Whoo boy... as slow as B is, it would've taken him a couple years to do all that. But, he's all fixed up now and B's been driving it; I drove it no problems this time. And I have a new place to get my lifted jeeps inspected. Instead of renting a vehicle to get him and all his "traveling tools" back & forth, I let him put Fenris to the test on this short turn-around trip. So far, so good. In a couple of weeks, he'll be towing a trailer and a heavy toolbox. More testing.
He's already had Hol's jeep in a garage tracing out an electrical issue for most of the year. But, it's not like he WANTS to work on it. Hol explained the problem she thought she had, and he just assumed responsibility for the work on his own - and then bitched about how she just dumps things on him. That is a totally unfair characterization of the situation; he's not even aware that he wouldn't just share knowledge with her - and let her fix it herself. OH NO... needs to make her the bad guy. To be fair, Hol does that to him quite a bit too.
I've been quietly watching the dynamics for awhile. Been pondering how these things happen... what part I'm playing in it too and owning that. It seems a lot like any time there are 3 people involved in something, someone's toes get stepped on and dissension seems to follow UNLESS, there's a person observing and speaking up, to head the whole act of the play off at the pass.
If 3 turns into 4 (Cody is a possiblity; being discussed but not with urgency) some of this will go away.
B's experience of "extended family" living situations is fraught with a lot of negative experiences. Hol & I have had our share, but we've continued to work through and improve things. That process is BRAND NEW to him. So, I've been paying closer attention to some of his "mutterings" and how he says how he's interpreting the interactions. Gathering more information. I have, I think, at least a direction to try now. Experiments are always good.
I am such a homebody introvert, that I almost never seek out new things to do, explore or try. And given his mobility issues and my lack of stamina and patience for large groups... we need to find things that aren't overly taxing. So I'm looking while he's gone.
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Meanwhile, I'm coordinating the elevator project & contractors. Found an external lift (1000 lbs capable) that costs a lot less than an internal one that needs an addition. Just have to cut a hole in the part of the deck I don't use. Talked to the guy who did the original glass replacement for me just after I'd moved in... he'll come out next week and look at rebuilding 3 sides of the decks (which are in sad shape) and sealing & painting the exterior.
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AGAIN, garden is a total disaster. Went from cold & wet in June, to abominably hot & dry - and SOME of my "itchies" turned out to be bug bites. SIGH. I still have herbs and some bulbs to plant. I am getting the sewing mess in the studio under control - mending, a historical sewing project (chemise), and tying up loose ends of the interior remodel.
Friend Deb is coming out for Labor Day weekend. Who knows what we'll get up to.